This dream is beneath feet with red toenails, times cant define me i can only hold on and hope for the best. i Will find Love eventualy. hopefully it finds me first. I dare not breathe or even move, for fear of messing up. I am scared that I will never be what my mother wants me to be, I fear of dissapointing God with my pettiness, my selfishness, and my brutel honesty. No matter how hard I try, it seems everything is fighting against me. Will i ever make tht trip to India, or Japan? Will I ever amount to anything more than just nother person wandering through life without a purpose or direction? What does my heart sing to you? Tell me what I want, tell me where I'm going, tell me my dreams. because I havnt learned to think for myself yet. Sleepless nights result in beautiful words, My best work is there, lying in this insomnia. I dont want to roll out of bed, but something keeps me going. Something tells me, today will be better, never give up hope for better days to come. Strange pictures on cardboard canveses, i used the good ones. My wallet is empty, but my head is full of dreams. I burned my hand on my lighter today, and then laughed at the pain. I crave pain, i crave love, i crave adventure, I crave fear. I crave so much more than I am allowed to live right now. I am sorry if I dont always live up to what I you want, what I am supposed to do according to you. Can you even be pleased? My dreams may not mean anything to you, but there my whole world. Without them, I couldnt go through daily life, Why live when you have no hope for something better? The dream crushers are on the loose, but I hold mine tight against my chest and pray to God they come true before they are broken and lost forever. Just let me stay safe until i can break out away from this familiar. Until I can live a life much stranger than this..
If it's a stranger life you want, your dreams can provide just that. It's funny that you say insomnia brings most beautiful words, because it's my sleeping hours, my dreaming hours, that pull the more amazing poems from me. I enjoy your writing, it's very streaming.
