I'm sorry if this isn't the right forum to post this in but I wasn't sure where else to go. I think it's entirely possible that i'm losing my mind. Sorry folks but this is gonna be a long post. Ok, so, last october, my dad had what i'd call a "meltdown" He rambled all night long one night about how he had figured out all of the mysteries of the bible and that god had touched him and he could read our minds and on & on & on. It got so bad that we took him to the hospital and he was checked into the psych ward for 1 week. They then released him with a diagnosis of bipolar disorder and a few prescriptions. He seemed better for a few weeks and then it spiraled out of control. My parents, who have always had the kind of relationship that I aspired to have someday, are now getting divorced. This was decided between 4 o'clock this morning and now. I am totally lost. He came to my house today and rambled for 3 hours about how god had spoken to him and told him that his whole life and ours were going to change this sunday. He has always been an amazing dad and husband and now he seems to be thrilled to help my mom move out & get a place on her own. Meanwhile, the rest of us are devastated. I don't even know what to begin to think about the whole thing. I mean, he is totally off his rocker. It's not even the same person. It's like he's possessed (or trippin 24/7) It kills me to say that about him b/c although he's my stepdad, he's the only dad I've ever known, but I don't know how else to put it. There isn't even a shred of the person I knew. I understand people change but I thought it was supposed to be gradual. It's like in that one night, anything that made him HIM is gone. I am lost. On one hand I'm so angry at him b/c of what he's done to our family esp. my mom. But on the other hand I just can't bring myself to be mad at him to his face b/c I don't want to hurt him. I don't know what to do. My mom and I have always been freakishly close and I know she needs me to be strong for her, but to be honest, I don't know how much strength I have left in me. Is this what bipolar does? I've known people who have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder before and while I know that diseases affect people in different ways, this isn't even close to anything I've seen before. I don't even really know what I'm asking for here. Maybe I just needed to vent. With both my mom and dad dumping on me, and my husband devastated by the whole thing, I have nobody to vent to. But any feedback, thoughts ideas or even good, loving vibes sent my way would be unbelieveably appreciated. Thanks for takin the time to read this. So sorry that it's so long.
Have you read anything about this condition? Talked w/the docs or anyone from the hospital? It helps tremendously when you have a Good clue about what you're facing. My Feelings/Thoughts/Prayers go out to yall. I have a friend w/a similar condition...
andcrs2~ We've tried and tried to talk to his doctors about this, but they act like WE'RE the crazy ones. Even when we tell them all the stuff that's been goin on, all we get for an answer is "well I haven't seen that behavior so I can't do anything about it" Like we're gonna call and make this shit up??? He just came back to the house tonight after having been gone for hours and it was ugly. All my mom did was ask him where he was and he flipped out. Now this si a man who has never even raised his voice to any of us in their 13 years of marriage and he was screaming like a mad man and shoving my mom around. I feel ill.
My parents don't have any health insurance (so a specialist is out) and this is supposedly the best hospital around. I don't know. On the one hand, I'm packin my mom's stuff, ready to get her the hell out of here. On the other, I fell terrible b/c this si my dad and I love him so much and i'm sick not knowing where he is or what he's thinking.
