Hey all, Just thought i'd have a quick hello and a rant! I had this big outburst of crying last night, just becasue i missed someone so much! The mad part was that i'd only just left them, it's like i couldn't handle being apart from them for long or something, i guess i'm just not used to that kind of emotion, becasue it wasn't family, and thats the only time i've experienced it! I think it's also the fact of not seeing them ALL the time, or anytime i want, mainly becasue of distance and money! It's a different kind of pain that i haven't really ever felt, but i know i'm doing it to myself so i can't complain really! I really wanna hold on and feel this pain, just because of how good it does feel when i am with them It's like all i think about is time, the next time to see them, hear them, touch them, smell them....anything! And i love getting reminded of them, just little things like smells or words and even simple sounds! This probably isn't making all that much sence to anyone, because i'm not exactly explaining anything very well! I just miss someone, and needed to write that down Thanx, just incase anyone reads this! x x x x x
I'm guessing this is someone you're seeing romantically? If it is I have experienced in the past, and sometimes I go through it when I don't see my partner for a while or I know I'm not going to see him for a while, and sometimes when one of us has to go to work (or elsewhere). I'm not a nutcase and it doesn't hapen every day, but sometimes I just get really emotional! Occaisionally I miss my friends I don't see very often, especially, on the way home from seeing them, and I find myself choaking back tears. You aren't alone!
Yeah it is It just feels strange though, that whole feeling of JUST seeing them, and feeling so overwhelmed by this *pain* when leaving, even though i have just been with them! I guess i'm just not used to it maybe! I've got it with friends before too, ones i've just been to see, that i haven't seen for a while! It's just that whole *getting in a comfotable position* to then move on again It's all part of everything though, i just keep thinking how much more i appreciate it when i do see him becasue of this painful gap, so that's probably why i've put myself in this situation in the first place! Thanx for that x x x x x
