You don't really matter that much anymore to someone? You start holding your tongue in conversations so you don't waste their time because sometimes you feel like you're just a burden to them or something of that nature and you don't want to piss them off because you're wasting their time, when they could be out doing other things they enjoy instead of talking to your lame ass? Having the feeling of worthlessness to that person but at the same time doubting the feeling, maybe its being paranoid?
yes. i have experienced it many times. i know it's happening because in the middle of what i'm saying they'll just start talking like i wasn't even there. so i walk away and find someone who DOES care. however, if it's a family member, i get rude, yell at them for speaking over me, or in some cases laugh rudely at them an mention they have the attention span of a fruit fly. some people need that sort of in-your face rudeness to realize that they're doing the same thing.
yes but more like because they're really busy or stressed-their deal-not mine. I do feel like people often don't talk to me to talk to me though that they talk to me because they want; a job, sex, an answer-not just to honestly get to know me. I just feel kinda...wait what's the date...22nd and my bras tight oh shit its pms and im on a 28 day cycle again. thats really good first time ive had a normal cycle....ever without bc pills but damn pms bites im soooooooo moody and sad and mehlancaly blahhhhhhhhhh no cramps though or headaches and the moodines isn't as bad as it used to be but it's still there big time
HELL yes, I understand that. My advice to you is to talk to them. NOW! Find out what is wrong so you waste no more time, and it won't get worse. I was doing this to someone and I didn't even realize it until they told me.
basically we all just want to hear what we have to say it takes some work to be interested in other ppls opinions and shit ... its very selfish but I have found this happens to me ALOT and I do it ALOT . just get pissed off and slam a couple of doors, then they'll ask you what's wrong, then you can yell at them for a bit, maybe take a nap, wake up- they may offer to make you some tea ... accept it, then talk a little ... have some make-up sex ... and forget about it for a couple of days until it once again rears its ugly head.
yes and no... I don't really bite my tongue or edit my words very well around people. Good and bad at times. But I had a peculiar thought the other day, wondering who would miss me if I disappeared. Not died, but just sort of faded away, out of sight and out of mind. one hand.... arr, but those relationships are -really- fucking good relationships
I need to be more like you I bite my tongue and project an image and expectations that are completley false most of the time. I appear to be an open book but the book is pure fiction...getting better at peeling the layers back though-a lot better. It's not fair to give people false impressions of what you need or how you feel or to hold back when you don't want to...did that answer the question? what was the question? would you like some valerian extract? it's weird stuff not sleepy just feel really drunk but nto happy or stupid....no fair how's school going this semester Kayleigh?
it's goin pretty good... terribly busy. Should be studying for a midterm but it's not until 4pm tomorrow, I'm gonna worry about it tomorrow morning and early afternoon. Big midterm and a term paper due tues (need to read two books for the term paper too) plus I work saturday, so that's just... busy as all hell but I'm resolved to make my attendence way better now that the midterm break is over with
I have midterms too got a perfect score on my psych/human psycho sexuality one (set the curve...) and a perfect score on my presentation for the same class and am failing spanish....for the 3 or 4th time I lost count and I hoed it up for my prof who's a grad student TA teaching the class and he basically said if I do the homework and go to tutoring by him he'll pass me. I feel like a hoe but I gotta pass spanish ya know?
ah, spanish hoe? I hate classes like that, where it's nearly impossible to do well just because the prof is awful. Stats I I nearly failed because of hte prof, but Stats II I got 85% in with minimal effort, it's ridiculous... purely based on the prof and how they teach
no I really suck at spanish and am lucky I have a 26 year old male professor and stress induced ulcers I made him feel really sorry for me and wear low cut shirt to our tutoring appoitments where we don't discuss spanish I convenatley work during those availible hours now (not really) so my new turor is Olivia I may be a hoe but I'm a hoe who will take it off the dresser before services are performed and drive away
