Did you ever see yourself making it to being the person you are today?

another reflective thread.

 

actualy before i got past the age of 27 i was abolutely for certain paranoid that i'd end up stuck in a time loop that would take me back to a couple of weeks before i was into this world born. it was with great releaf that i found this not to have happened. but it kind of messed up what i might otherwise have been able to do with that part of my life. and i can't say as i've done all that much to brag about since then

although, for a while living up in oregon in my 30s i was able to redefine myself as the person i think i was ment to be. but then when i came back down here to califonia, where the only resources i knew i had were, well it didn't take long before that fell appart again. that was in 87 that i got back. ten years after i went up there in 77. well i won't bore you with the rest of the details. there's really not all that much interesting to tell. the best parts of my life were the railroad in the early 70s and sothern oregon in the late.

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I never dreamed I would be 20 with a kid and no college degree..... but I wouldn't dream it anyother way now.

 

I never imagined I'd live past 20, but here I am

 

No, never. I truly amaze myself at times with the life I have.

 

actually yes,, as i continue to have goals that i work towards ,, i see myself where i need to be for the eternity of this life..

its really not inconcevable to realise what ya want as a child an graduate your goals thru time..

 

i remember a particular moment in my life where i thought 'hey i wonder what i'll be like when i'm 20' i must have been about 5 or 6...i always pictured myself with longer hair and going to university, so yeah i guess i did.

 

No. I always pictured myself already out of college and getting ready to take over the world. Oh well.

I still have plenty of time to get my degree and I get to have the family that I thought I'd have to give up for my education. I'm happy with who I am becoming.

 

For the most part yes - my career has progressed along pretty nicely and I am happy where I am at.

If you told me when I was 16 that between then and now I'd live in 8 other states before I wound about where I am now at 30, I'd say you were crazy.

The results are shaping up very much as I had imagined, the journey however was far different than what I expected in high school.

 

I thought high school was gonna be like saved by the bell....boy was I wrong. And I thought university was going to be like 90210....once again, wrong. Wheres my beach house?

 

I thought I would be much further along then I actually am but I did not know everything life entailed; school wise, choices wise, love wise, friendship wise, family wise. hindsight is always 20/20.
Am I happy with my life? I don't know? The answer differs each hour.

 

hah god I'm tired but not sleepy. You know what I mean? I had a LONG day tutoring, then work 7am-8pm It's hard to get back int he swing of things.

 

Making it to being the person I am today? I'm in trouble with the law and didn't finish college. Yeah, I kinda saw this coming.

 

i thought i would be at a D1 school, doing some sport back in high school. so no, i did not think i'd be where i am right now. am i happy where i am now? damn right i'm happy. i have the best friends i could ask for.

i dunno though, i never thought i would be at a miliatary college. but this place has made me a better person than any other place could have. i have great friends, i believe i have a good character....i like who i am.

i'll see where my life ends up going...

 

My life has been pretty much as I planned ... yet better because I had absolutely no ambition other than partying.