One that must walk the earth alone once more...

Well, to all those who wants to find someone who lost someone really special, hear me out.

9-10-04: I was going to see my fiance, Jen at her house. I beat her mother to the house and I was almost baffled that she didn't answer the door. After about 10 minutes of waiting, I left. I saw her mother coming my way and I followed her. After I was parking the bike at the side of the house, I heard a shriek from the bathroom. To my dismay and my heart, the one I loved was lying in the tub, dead for at least an hour and half. Although it was pointless to get her body from out the tub, I HAD to try to get her out, hoping it was a sick joke. To me, my worst possible nightmare had just came to pass and I wasn't the one who died, though I should have been her instead, gladly. I was lost and gone. My folks tried to understand the situation but for the first and LAST time in my life, I experienced true horror, in the form of my love. The funeral was two weeks later and as usual, I didn't cry at the funeral (Don't ask me, I never did cry at funeral, and no, I don't like funerals either.) Now, one year and a couple of months later, I'm here in the Bronx, all alone, no folks, no family, very LITTLE in the form of friends, and no girl to love anymore.

The brat that I see on a daily basis have put my shattered heart into a state of hatred that I didn't think possible. Anyone who wishes to reply with their story ot their thoughts, drop a line.


Raziel X

 

Im sorry for your lose and that "brat" who makes you hate. I hope soon you won't hate! And soon that you won't be so sad! I wish I had more to say but I don;t know what to say. I really hope you feel better soon! Sorry

 

I know what it's like to lose someone close to you. It's not easy and it requires many months and sometimes years of healing.

I wish you the best of luck in your endeavors.

Just remember, everything happens for a reason...

Good luck!

 

everything happens for a reason. people come in and out of your life for a reason. obviously this girl meant a lot to you and changed you and made you grow. not that its good that shes dead or anything but is it possible that she has fufilled and accomlished all she was meant to, including making you see things differently?

im sorry for your loss and wish you the best. cherish what you had, focusing on purely her death will make her life seem in vain.