I'm feeling depressed again... It's march break, and I haven't been seeing many friends, and my life just seems really dull. I miss all the things and people I love, I'm just really unhappy. Then I'm going to go back to school, and it's not going to be much better...I really miss those good times with my friends a while ago, and its just making me really depressed. A few months ago (before I started taking anti-depressants) I was extremely depressed and getting suicidal a lot. Now I'm mostly okay, but I'm just really depressed again now, and I don't know what to do....
man. really sucks to hear that... but dont give up dude, if something depression's taught me is not to give up
Oh, man, depression bites. I got told by a doctor that people in my situation are often depressed. He offered to give me a 'scrip for anti-depressants. I refused. I figured if my situation was the cause then it needed to be changed rather than drugging myself so I could cope. I ain't broke, they d*** system is. I realize that you're still a minor and not quite as free to change your situation. But I'd suggest finding someone to talk with about your feelings. A professional is good if that's a possibility. Otherwise a clergy member or a good friend who doesn't mind hearing you bitching and even crying a lot is a huge boon. Best of luck and know the problem is in the way we're all being forced to live and not in you. (((HUGS)))
On the anti-depressants I still felt low on energy... you can maybe increase your dose or change meds. Smoking pot adds to the lack of joy when your burned out too. I know how you feel, it sucks.... sorry that you have to feel so shitty at such a good time in your life ( I mean before bills and shit) It's a real catch22.
Don't up your dose. Eat better, excercise more, and if it still doesn't improve maybe look into Cognitive Therapy.
Thanks. You're all great and supportive! Yeah, the antidepressants don't help much. I just feel kind of empty but content most of the time, and then sometimes, like now, I get really depressed again. I've also stopped taking the drugs I used to do for a while (pot, shrooms, acid) to clear my head and because I've heard they can make depression worse. I guess I feel kind of trapped. There's all these beautiful things in the world I love, but I'm stuck in this system that is just so uninspiring. Most people around me just don't get it, how things are, and the few that do aren't consistent enough in how they are for me to trust. Well, a few are, but I don't get to see them much. Then coming on here and seeing all the wonderful people out there just makes me cry, because I can't find that here. For a while, especially after some weird shroom trips which taught me a lot, I thought suicide would set my soul free, because it was so painful and I wanted to get back to that beautiful place in my head where everything is free. There's also a girl I really love, and she's so amazing, but she doesnt want to date anyone. And I feel like I don't have the right to love her, but it hurts me because I want to love her and I want her to love me... Last school year, I was homeschooled, and I spent my time with some really wonderful people outside on my friends farm, having some great times and getting high. Now we're all back in school, and it's getting me down. I need some beautiful people to love... I've tried therapy and stuff, for years, but it's just never worked for me, and I've never trusted the person enough. Thanks for your advice !
Cognitive Therapy has been shown to be much more effective than SSRIs. Its different than regular therapy.
I've had cognitive therapy before, didnt work, maybe I'll try it again. My parents are forcing me to take 150 mg Effexor XR every day, and I agreed even though I'm not sure how much I trust it...
Thats what I was on, I went off and I still feel the same as when I was on ... so I still do basically agree with the cog therapy. I use it myself. Sometimes though, you just need medication.
