That's why I was so sick was just from really poor mental health, It caused liver failure my immune system to catch every little thing. I couldn't keep anything down..it was a good diet plan though..now I'm depressed about not keeping most of the weight off. lol how stupid is that? How did you get over those feelings? This guy is suppossed to be really good and not just 'hand out pills' and I got approved for 20 visits through my insurance so I think I might actually be able to get some things done with him have a happy day
I've been in and out of therapy since I was 11. I never started psych pills till I was 18. My last dose of pills was this past summer. I've been off meds since August. I can't really say I ever really have gotten over those feelings. I've learned how to cope with them a bit better so they don't over take my life like they used to. Every day was a challenge just to put my feet on the floor and move forward. It was a very dark time in my life. Hopefully your therapist will give you come coping skills that will help you put to use when you're feeling whatever it is that wraps you up in depression. If it's past issues that you haven't been able to come to terms with this is a great place to start. Some things happen to us that are out of our control but it doesn't have to take our will to live out of us or disrupt the rest of our lives. Do you have a good friend you can talk with, someone you really trust? Maybe after your appt. you could talk with them about some of the suggestions and they could help you put them to use. I know we have had our few words with each other however I owe you an apology. I never meant to hurt you with anything I've ever said. My way of being contructive isn't always so clear and received that way.
I owe you an apology big time as well. Can we just put it behind us? He was really good. I was on the wrong medication, which was causing me more anxiety. He told me to get off the caffine and find a new job lol...only if it were that easy. He is taking me off all my meds and putting me on a low dose of effexor instead and gave me a referal to a cognitive therapist who I will see in three weeks. It was really hard not to manipulate him to get valium or something fun hah just to get me through these next few months...but in the long run I think things will work out. The rest of my life is more important than the next 2 or three months and he set in the reality that I am totally afraid of failing and what is really the worst thing that will happen if I do fail ie-lose my job, don't pass spanish again-nothing in my life changes drastically if either of these things happen. I also get too easily annoyed so to be accepting and work on listening to other people instead of just wanting silence all the time is something I have to work on. This is super hard with this site because I come on here so I don't have to talk to my friends or family in person. I just get everything out on here and perhaps that's not healthy but I was too embarassed to tell him about my internet addiction lol. He also says I need more sleep...hah funny how the things we know we don't take seriously until a 'professional' tells us to do it. My mom saw a pair of dogs at the beach last week; a goldendoodle and a labordoodle...she said they seemed really smart and they were like a golden retriver savant lol.
We are moving forward. We are kind of a like when it comes to the internet. I can think and express myself easier on here or via emails than I can when I talk with people in person. Plus if I don't like something I've just said while typing I can delete it. I wish it was that easy when face to face talking. Finding another job sounds like it might be a very heathy move. You know lots of people. Do you think some of them might have connections to offer you something bigger, better, and healthier than where you are now? No harm in putting the word out to the people you know who won't tell the job your at now. My doodle just had a beauty treatment on Friday. I spent several hours with her. She had her nails cut, ears cleaned, groomed, bath, brushed several times. She's so adorable. I'm amazed at how smart she is. I tell her to give Daddy a kiss and she runs over to him and smooches him. She likes to dance too. I have to laugh when she yawns. She makes the weirdest noises. lol
I know jealousy is horrible but I am really jealous of your dog!!! I want a goldendoodle very bad and a puggle. I miss having just a beautiful dog...not to say that Ruby's not beautiful but I mean I miss the long fur and the bows and all that. Ruby and Beau got new collars and name tags yesterday. Beau got a tan collar and Ruby a black one and the id's a cool they're in this hammered silvre. My mom was mad that I was at work so long yesterday because she wanted me to come home and complement the dogs hah. I need to wait until May because I have a class two days a week until 10 so I think I'll start applying now. I found a resume service to help me with my resume and cover letter got some letters of reccomendation and am looking. i have actually gotten a few offers but they are grant based positions and I really want to work for the city or the county where I can get tuition reimbursement and transfer my 401k into a better plan and have retirement as well. I want to find a job where I can stay for awhile because I would like to buy soon and finally be vested in my accounts and have access to them and all that so even though I want to quit now I'm just going to hold off and if they fire me then I get unemployment and cobra and 6 months to look for a new job so im just going to chill and hang with the kids and not trip the rest of my time there... I know what i want to do I just have to get there and work on enjoying the journey, which is something I've never been able to do when it comes to work or school. Are your boys feeling any better? Is all the strep out of the house?
It sounds like you have a smart plan. You're not quitting which would screw yourself in the end without having something else to fall on. May really isn't that long though when happiness is involved it can seem like a long time. Maybe once you reach your goal you can look back on this and see how strong you really are. I don't like uncomfortable situations. I've bailed too many times and really didn't learn anything in the process except accepting my fear which isn't healthy. My boys are both very sick. The strep is gone but now there's a bucket of other symptoms. My oldest was sent home from school today because he threw up in the hallway and in the nurses office. My youngest one had a high fever this morning, he's coughing, and he's losing his voice. I think he likes to hear himself talk with that frog voice. I have both of them with me in the living room. One on each sofa watching Scooby Doo Halloween. Goldendoodles can be very hyper dogs. They also shed which disappointed me because we went in this thinking she wasn't going to shed. I vacuum all the time. The fact she is becoming a very good dog and we are building trust I'm coming to terms with the shedding. She's been able to be in the house alone without being locked in her crate. She still goes in there by choice but she can be in any room and hasn't destroyed anything except nibbled on a rug and tried eating the foyer tile. Not too bad. One thing I have noticed about this breed is they like structure. She's so used to our daily routines she really doesn't have to be told to do things she does them on her own.
Oh man this winter is horrible for ilnesses!!! Just all kinds of viruses going around. All my kids at work have been sick I've been cleaning up throw-up and...uhm other stuff constantly the past two weeks...not fun times. That's great that you are there to pick your kids up. The kids at my work don't have the option of staying home sick, it's sad they have to go to school from 7-3 and then our program from 3-6 that's a long day for a sick child!!! I always hand my grandparents to take off when I was sick. It just seems like no one has families anymore. it's like why have kids and big families if you can't care for them? I just don't understand. Your boys are lucky and I love haloween cartoons hah!
I always liked the voice I got when my throat was sick... all dark and husky and waaay sexier than my normal voice. I sounded like a sex phone operator (or what I imagine one would sound like) instead of a 14 year old kid (which is what I normally sound like) is a goldendoodle a golden retriever? when I lived iwth my stepdad, we had a golden retriever too. She's 12 or 13 now though... but she took a while to fully train when we first got her too. They will ALWAYS shed though, that never goes away. I love how exciteable golden retrievers are, they get so happy just by having people around, it's adorable
I'm sure she appreciates your amateur psychology. How long do you have to fast for? It gets way easier after the first 30 hours.
