when your relationship is falling to pieces and there's nothing it seems you can do and you don't want it to happen but it seems easier on the other side but you can't do that because you still love her and you still want to be with her and that you say it all doesn't matter but that it's all still very hard what do you do?
You go with your heart my friend, and to me, your heart loves her deeply, so deeply that it overwhelms you. I saw those pictures of the two of you in your gallery, and you two definitely have something very special together. It shines through, the love is there, the happiness. It radiates like a beacon. It brings tears to my eyes because it reminds me very much of my husband and I and our love together. I don't know what kind of problems you've been having or what your situation may be, but I do know this...if it's meant to be, it will happen, and things will work out for the best. No matter how much you love one another, there will be bumps in the ride. It's part of life. What matters is getting over those bumps, and doing it together, coming out even stronger than ever and confirming your love for one another even moreso. I wish you much luck and love...and do what's in your heart. Listen to it, and go with it. Peace my friend...
Sometimes there's nothing you can do but to let go... and hope something happens and takes you back, but then you've got that aching part of you that worries if nothing will ever happen.
I can't tell you. But if you truly can't do anything, you have to just roll with it. And if you truly love her then just never stop fighting for her- but only you know if it is the true and ultimate love.
I am goin through the same feeling, my heart literally aches, I used to think of that as an anecdote/metaphor(not sure of right word) We got arranged married, while I was fully commited to the marriage I dont think my wife was. Although I have been a loser all my life, I was doing fine now, I even controlled alcohol till the point she didnt let me close much and not treated me well, or I am not sure if the alcohol craving was changing my perception. Now I am taking treatment for deaddiction, although I myself have made up my mind about this, I will not touch alcohol again, as I have an addictive personality. The problem now is I feel my wife is in love with someone else realizing I am a loser and drunkard. She wont talk to me or let me see her. What can such losers like me do, suicide is the option but is not so easy, I have tried before. After all this I hope my wife comes back, since I trust god. If not, please god give me a fatal disease like cancer or an accident you had kept for a happy person, I would happily die instead of spreading sorrow to all the friends and family that love me.
You calling yourself a loser is not helping your situation. You have internalized defeat, and are already in a sense, dead. For your ex-fiancee's sake, I am glad she has moved on. But you need to take care of yourself and speak to a professional who can help you deal with depression or alcohol consumption. There's a limit to trusting god. You must trust in yourself. There is a saying - "Do your best, and let god do the rest." My advice is see a doctor about your depression and whichever problems in life are plaguing you at this time. Wishing for a deadly disease because you're calling yourself a loser is not healthy, nor are you in ANY shape to be in a relationship.
http://www.mental-health-matters.com/articles/article.php?artID=157 I am afraid and ashamed to admit I have quite a fewof these symptoms, but so what, under my life circumstances, and my socities cirumstances I have become like that. Nobodys all that great in my society, atleast they dont show it. Is it ok for a person to ask for a relationship knowing that hes a loser. Cant losers become lovers. Even my wife who has left me is not such great, but I guess just because she found a better person she deserted me. Would I have done that had I found a more beautiful and charming girl? No. For some person everything they touch becomes gold but for me , I guess I am cursed. Even when I encourage a team or a player (even if they are good) they lose, really.If I dont like someone he becomes great, If I like someone they turn to be cheat. I dont think all this can happen without fate, not that I am not intelligent, I can solve complex problems, have an above average IQ, look decently smart, not really ugly either. Also I have this gift to be at the wrong place at the wrong time with the wrong people. I dont believe all this can happen without fate, or karma or whatever you want to call it. Although I am a physically fit person, I am as handicapped mentally as a blind man. Isnt life all about suffering. I am ashamed of myself for not doing anything wrong intentionally. why am i not getting the guts to die yet, I have nothing to live for except embarrasment, why?
Way to wallow in self-pity man. I can sympathise with your situation up to a point, but you seem to have thrown in the towel, and are just lying there letting life kick shit out of you. Not my way! When you're down there's only one way to go as far as I'm concerned, and that's up. DO something about it instead of whining. I reckon in this life we make a lot of our own luck, but I'll give you a start by wishing you Good luck!
if you luv sumthin let it go i.... we have all heard it,,, let it go,,, soul mate doesnt always mean life mate,,,, oh n drunkard,,, when ya find yerself in a hole,,, stop diggin,,,, oh and iffin ya wanna keep gettin what yer gettin,,, keep doin what yer doin none meant to be hurtful... just honest,,,,, luv n lite
i tried jumping out of a building today, but got too scared, next time I am not going to look down. My main plan now is to get lots of sleeping pills, a plastic bag, and LPG connection to that, I still have to work out the details, but frankly I am excited about dying, and this method seems painless, yeah! If you dont hear me for a month, then it means I am dead. I will still be posting till that tough. Sorry for ignoring all the encouragement, thats wishfull thinking, please wish me a painless death. If you have some ideas about this, please PM me. And sorry for posting a lot in someone elses thread, I will try to move this.
Thats horrible drunkard. Ive felt like you are probably feeling right now but really stop Man STOP. Life isnt something you live for just yourself because thats horribly selfish. You live so that you can affect others lives in a good way and to love and to expierience true happiness. There is no material, figurative, and or personal loss that would ever justify those kinds of actions. I have gone down the same path and i know that depression and sadness is temporary it may hurt for a long time but you will be happy again. You have to find something you like to do and let it take control of you for a while. You need to be with people who care about you and you need do positive activitys so that you can grow.
ehh, i got a lot of advice from my parents last night, they began crying a lot when i mentioned i am contemplating suicide. i dont know now, they said they will become vegetables if i die. that doesnt sound too nice. so..., i have postponed my decision, went to a psychatrist today, anyway have been going for a while for alcohol deaddiction, he also gave me some blah blah advice, sounds good for a while then later depression creeps in. its been a cycle now.i think hes put me on some anti deps and muscle relaxants, which kinda feels good. i guess my wife heard of my suicidal plans, so my wife called and said to take care of myself, when asked why, she said for the cause of humanity, bitch! i sometimes i hope i start hating her, for making my life miserable. this is the deal between us though, we are going to part for some six months, we each can find another gf bf for ourselves. if we havent and we meet after six months and our minds accept each other we might live together. great! let me keep getting older as a virgin. the fact is i am not ready to date or have a rel with anyone else right now, and i know my wife also is not such an easy gitl to find a bf right away. what complications, and just around all these i am going through alcohol deaddication, though i sneaked a bottle of vodka lastnight, cause i couldnt bear the pain in my heart, and wanted some will to live. a botlle of alcohol can still do wonders to your life, but for me a bottle today means 7 bottles for the next week and forever. i am still determined to get deaddicted from alcohol, in case my wife decides to come back and sees me with a bottle of rum, i am dead. thanks to folks listening,commenting, just makes me feel, someone cares for me.
drunkard. Dude you have totally hi-jacked someone elses thread, and I for one aren't listening anymore.
ok , i think this thread ends, my anti deps are working and my suicidal instincts have dropped. funny, the minute i started telling my wife i am not interested in the marriage anymore she want to reconsider and has agreed for us to goto counselling.
