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hi, im sad....i hate being the youngest, they always make it out to be so great and being spoiled and shit but that isnt true. Im ignored and my older, more perfect siblings always get more attention. WHy did my parents even have me, why am I even alive. Its not like I make anything better...or good at all. Ive been sad for a long time. I hate crying everyday. Im nothing to any of them. I want my family to actually like me and talk about me to our relatives instead of, "guess what her older sister did...or brother"...its like, theyd be amazed if she shit her pants or something, and if i did then id get in trouble.

 

sounds rough hon.. I was adopted so I used to carry the "if you carried me in your womb for 9 months you'd treat me different" grudge... yeaaaa its not gonna get you anywhere Im sure they love you just as much and plus I had an uber big family and we just got 2 new foster kids and stuff.. and Im used to be shoved to the back burner.. you should find something that makes you happy... and eventually they'll come around... find some friends to chill with or something...

 

yeah, dont have any friends...seriously i dont..and if i do, theyre guys and they hang out with my boyfriend on friday nights, then i see him on the next 2 days. hes a good thing to make me happy..and music, which i am listening to right now so i'm a little happier than when i posted this a while ago...

 

The most important thing is to be happy with yourself. I know how hard it is to live up to others expectations so don't, just try to live up to your own.

 

@nell: stay in isolation for some time. become detatched.

 

thanks everyone, but i realized that i was just being immature and in the heat of the anger...i thought about it, and im not that eventful right now, i mean....my sister just had her baby so of course theyre all over that...so my time will come, im very content right now/

 

sounds good..... haha... I've gone through that umm like 12 times or so... hahaha.. you get used to it...

 

i know the feeling

 

you can always squeeze one out just to even the score.

 

muwahaha....what if i said i did that already :X haha not really, but HEY maybe i should. Speaking of shittingmy pants, my mom was changing my niece and i asked her what she would do if i shit my pants...and she was like, "HELL NO"(hickish accent)

 

its funny with expectations......my sister got 99.4 in her HSC........which is like the final exams here

thats like the exivalent of being accpeted to Harvard or Yale or shit like that.

 

I was talking about babies, but your idea is hot too.

 

ahh.............