Okay, I need help with my dream. It's really confusing so I hope I don't lose anyone. I had a dream that one of my friend's exboyfriends exgirlfriends/baby's mom was pregnant again. My boyfriend, for some reason, was chasing her around trying to figure out if it was his b/c he wanted a baby so bad. The thing is he's never been with this girl in his life and he doesn't even like her as a person (you would understand if you know her). We were on this obstical course or something. It was really wierd. I was bothered by it in my dream but it wasn't a big deal. I kept getting the urge to say, "If you want a baby so fucking bad I'll have it for you" but I didn't say it. I had this dream about a week ago and just yesterday I found out she just found out she's 6 months pregnant and doesn't know who the father is. Then I had a dream that it was the beginning of our relationship when things were just starting but my boyfriend was someone else (does that make sense?). We were doing so great, talking about getting married like we are now, so on and so forth, then all of a sudden he was with someone else. he told me he was sorry but this girl was the person he really wanted to be with and he set me up with someone else to go out with to make me feel better. At first I was okay with it b/c at least he didn't leave me empty handed but then I started realizing what was happening and I started feeling extremely emotional. It was so real that when I woke up I was surprised I wasn't sobbing like I was in my dream. I just told myself it was a dream and grabbed onto him as tight as I could. I didn't want to let him go. As soon as I drifted back to sleep I started right back where I left off sobbing. I could actually feel the emotion physically when I woke up. Later when he woke up I told him I had a horrible dream and I wouldn't let him go. He asked me what it was about and I couldn't even talk about it. That's how real it felt. What does all this stuff mean? Am I just insecure?
Hi cosmicreation can you see your self being sure, too, and secure. Sure that change is embracing you, and not taking away is he what truly matters to your heart but holding you and taking care. And it is all you. Sure you will not let go the need to be whole and complete inside yourself, and will not let go the wonder of being you. Sure it takes vulnerability, and also a free emotional roller coaster ride now and then ... to know it is still you. All the others help you with it, be it in dreams or daylight, with their own matters of heart, and i think this is sure, too. Just an idea!
