Need a minute to bitch.

Not looking for sympathy. I'm just going to take a moment to bitch.

My jaw hurts, my shoulders and back hurt, I'm sick of feeling bloody tension all over me. I wish sometimes I could just lighten the fuck up.

I'm sick of not being able to retain information and take leaps towards things that could improve my well-being. I live in a ridiculous amount of fear.

Alright I'm done!

Bitch away if you'd like.

 

one word.....xanax

 

ummm take two and call me in the am

 

As much as I dont like to admitt it, way back in the day my mom was on xanax and valium all 9 months while I was in the oven.

So its been explained to me just as crack babies end up hooked on crack.......ya get the picture.

On xanax I can think, focus, run 100 mph....shit me and my crew are building three houses at the same time.

Take the xanax away, I cant do shit, cant focus, cant even hardly work.

At times I got to check myself cause I take more than needed, but when I use my head and take whatrs needed to function, life is like it should be and I even have normal sleep patterns.

It sucks but thats life....hope things get better.

 

Thank you for offering a suggestion.

I actually did take a muscle relaxer today prescribed by my oral surgen for my jaw. lol They don't work very well.

I really do need to unwind.

Xanax can be nasty. It's great that it's helping you. I've heard it's a bitch to get off of.

 

Around christmas I had to check myself cause I was taking way too many and it was the hardest time ever, now I take a bit less then needed, still a bit edgy all the time but thats better than the other option.

 

You know what I want to work on? My ability to change the way I perceive situations.

I bet if I could do that my "edge' would lessen.

I used to take anti-depressants. I took xanax for a short bit awhile back. I stopped taking it not knowing the effects. I remember crying because it was raining. I thought I was losing my mind.

The past (almost) year I haven't been on any meds except for vitamins and natural herbs. (st. John's wort, omega 3's)

I know someone who keeps a small handful of xanax in her pocket. Sometimes she can fall asleep sitting up.

 

Im sure you already know that food and drink play a big part in stress reduction or the op....also.

 

^^ so does smoking some herb

 

Whenever I am feeling down, I stick the handle of a comb in my throat and puke. That way, I can lose weight, and feel better at the same time. You shoud try it.

 

this is my mantra right now

seems to apply here too

ya think if someone repeats something like that enough times it'll come true? i started taking antidepressants a couple of weeks ago because i cant find any joy in anything. **sigh** as much as i wanted it to, the natural approach just wasnt cutting it anymore.

hope you can find your bliss again, peanuts.

 

My eating habits could improve. Too many carbs isn't good for my head.


Jokerman that would be wonderful but it's not realistic in my situation.

 

Thank you

Are the meds helping you? May I ask what are you taking?

 

Sounds like you need a break.

 

i was given xanax for panic attacks and lots of tension. i think that shit is horrible. better to have a beer. i'm still tense, still have a headache, tmj, back troubles. fuck it.

 

If it takes you just a minute to bitch, you're doing better than I am.

 

i'm on effexor xr, but havent been taking them long enough to know if it's really making a difference on my mood. the side effects are fun though~super sleepy in the mornings, can hardly drag myself out of bed and i've been a little backed up. i'm going to give it another month before i decide if it's working or not.

 

i hear you on that!

have you read 'the crazy makers'? it talks about diet and mood and all of that. before life circumstances sort of went to hell for me, diet was making a huge difference on my mood.

 

Effexor wsa the last medication I was on. I felt euphoric in the begining for about 2 weeks. It wore off and the side effects floored me. Almost lost my mind, again.

It's so frustrating trying to find a med that works. Sometimes I wonder if it's better to be on meds or is it better to fight the flight and learn how to deal with it even though the strong emotions will always be there.

 

I'll have to look for this book.

I have a book called Eating right for your blood type. Have you heard of that one? My blood type is O+. I should be eating a lot of fish. That would be wondeful if I could increase my taste buds to liking a lot of fish. Lobster, scallops, clams, and crab legs are terrific but they are not high up on the omega's.