I suddenly thought of conspiracy theories I've had in my life... and realized I've had them since I was really small. when I was a kid I thought all adults could read minds (how could they know when I lied otherwise?), but they were very good pretending they couldn't, by treating mind-reading as a unnatural and superficial "super power" in books, movies etc. I mean, such thoughts can't really be normal for a kid, can they? I realized I'm still a conspiracy nut some time ago when I saw a (whole, unsmoked) cigarette lying on the ground outside my school, and I thought there were two possible reasons it was lying there: a) I was in candid camera, and people would laugh at me if I picked it up, or b) it was a trap made by some police force. the cigarette was filled with some illegal substance, and I would get busted, because there were cops in the bushes. I then thought "Oh, come on! don't be such silly conspiracy nut! but... WHAT IF it's true?" then I thought about other conspiracy theories. I come up with a new one at least once a month. what's the problem with me? :& I don't really know what I want with this post, other than clearing my own mind. Peace.
oh totally understandable, when you start to think about all the possible motives and reactions and every minutiae of detail in this world, conspiracies are everywhere... sometimes it can be fun to just let them sink in. just yesterday i was thinking about the whole "im a robot, no wait i'm a robot programmed to think this" and so on ad infinitum, and when you start to pick up on the absurd little consequences and coincedences of everyday life, things pop out.
Wow, man. That is really intense. We just studied that kind of thing in Intro Psych, and I actually can begin to understand how intense that is... I'm definetly not anxiety-attack paranoid, I just mean as a diversion from ordinary thinking. Although I do understand anxiety, I used to get attacks when I had to do public speaking...
i'm like that all the time. i think there are ulterior motives behind everything, and i don't trust anyone other than my friends, and the people on hipforums because they're just as weird as me . i have tried so many times to refuse to go to school, because i believe that it is set up to fill minds with false information and then close them up, creating generation after generation of zombie robots. which isn't really too radical. i mean, they are "preparing you for your future" and when you try to figure out what that future is, anything other than more schooling and then getting a job and a house and a television and having a "normal" life makes you an "at risk" student. i am a person who has been physically thrown out of class for refusing to stand during the pledge, who has quit a choir class where you were required to sing christian and patriotic songs, who has been yelled at and kicked out of class for voicing her opinion when the science teacher said on thanksgiving we should all be grateful there are soldiers dying to protect our freedom, and argued with the counselor when she told me freedom and money are the same thing. unfortunately, if you don't subject yourself to their sad attempts at brainwashing on a daily basis, you get in legal trouble. so i continue to go... but because of the way i think, and how i have expressed my way of thinking in the past, i am constantly followed by teachers in the halls who think i don't notice their "keeping an eye on me". at a school dance, a friend and i went into the bathroom to talk. a few seconds later, a teacher came in and went in a stall but we didn't hear her pee. just to test it out, we went in again a little later. another teacher came in, talked to another student, and left. then, a while later, we went in, and ANOTHER teacher came in. we asked her why, and she said "to make sure everything's ok". i told her i knew how to pee, it's really not that difficult. another time, we were a few minutes late to class, and we got called to the office together. we weren't even in the same class, but because we were both late, they assumed we were doing something we shouldn't be. how many kids do you think were late to class that period? it was right after break, so TONS. i've had my bottles of water dumped out because teachers thought it was alcohol. i've had my pacifier banned from school because they thought i had drugs INSIDE it. it's absolutely ridiculous. i'm sorry to rant, but this world sure as hell is one big fucking conspiracy. did you know cops are actually trained to learn brainwashing techniques?
Yeah, I get bursts of paranoid conspiracy theory all the time .. sometimes is stupid little things like, one of the reasons Americans are so patriotic is because they live in the US (we) A (number 1)... but then there are bigger things.. for example... I was listening to a UK BBC radio programme about Irans Nuclear Capability, and the Presenter used the word discussed/disgust 3 times. Sounds normal, but the way it was emphasised (like you would say disgust*ing rather than discussed) made me think about it more... we have the radio on nearly all the time here, so I made a point of listening out for it again to see if it was commonly used, but since then I have only heard that specific word two or three times! Seems like an attempt at subconscious suggestion. Then there's the every day stuff that most people don't even notice... the whole "you're free to do exactly as we say" crap... the idea of failure in society.. the idea that watching the news 'is good'.. double-standards (role-reverse the US and Iraq, if the Iraqis started bombing America for Americas reasons, it'd be far worse than it is in Iraq now).. the idea that Capitalism "is the way".. the trouble is, if enough people believe that sort of stuff then the brainwashing is taken care of .... :|
that whole adults can read you mind thing, when i was a kid i would force my self to think about how great my dad was intill i heard him snore because i thought he could read my mind. now that im older 16 i still bleive he can read my mind. for example he will let me go to a party without question but it seams like every party that has an illegal subastance he questions me about. and on weekends where i have nothing to do he leaves me alone but when my friends have something for me to do he is like oh i thought you wanted to hang out with me this weekend so i canceled my plans. i dont know maybe its esp or maybe its just dumb luck but he has always known how to keep me out of trouble. another example is one day i so to school with my stash and they call me to the office and they cant find it. after there done searching i look for it and cant find it. when i get home my dad says arent you glad i love you. now how did he know i had it how did he know they were going to search me? i dont know and now that i got to talking about it im starting to think damn
no one HAS to read your mind, just put two and two togather from what you say in public! as for conspiracies, people 'conspire' with each other all the time. it's called networking. and dollars to doughnuts, unless you're a total hermit, living in total isolation on the moon or something, if you have any kind of friends at all, you do it all the time yourself and don't even think about it. and this isn't a bad or evil thing either. it's just a naturaly part of social existence. not just a part of social existence. it is what social existence IS. all of human society, each and every last one of us, is, therefore, in some sense 'a conspiracy'. the nuttiest thing is to suggest that it's nutty to suggest this simple basic reality exists. =^^= .../\...
