ya know, i went for so many years by myself, wrapped up in lifes net of problems, not wanting to subject anyone to my screwed up situation. Now, finally i'm somewhat free (at big personal cost and 6 years of time) of the worst of it. and fuck man, i had to fall for this flakey, blithe girl that doesnt give a fuck about anything. I mean, i havent called her in a week, and i'm sure i could call her tomorrow and she wouldnt even be pissed, because i just dont mean a thing to her. If i dont pick up the phone, i'll never hear from her again. That sounds drastic, but i swear its true. The girl has never once given me a phone call. So pride tells me to write off these last 4 months and go look for someone else, but it still really hurts that she doesnt give a damn at ALL. as fiona apple would say - Oh Well. silly 22yo college girls. what was i thinking anyway. I have the month of april off, and this girl stuck in my head has ruined my holiday. and will no doubt continue to do so. well, whatever, just wanted to rattle on about that for a minute.
I feel for ya. I know what thats like... to have had feelings for someone (who may at first seemed to care) but they just dont give a damn anymore...... If someone loves you, they WILL make the effort to let you know. They WILL make sure you know that you are in their thoughts. They WILL be there for you even when times are tough. Why waste your time, your emotions, your heart, on someone who doesnt reciprocate?? Forget her. Move on. Find someone who will share those feelings with you. I know it hurts, but better to move on now than hang on and continue to feel this pain of being neglected. Peace to you... ~Jamie
Communication. Tell her what you are feeling. If you aren't happy with the situation then you have to do something about it. Either leave her or try to fix the problems. If you don't talk to her you can't fix anything. If she isn't interested in you even after you have a talk with her then she's a waste of time.
ahh i communicated too much to her already. early on i let it slip when i was drunk that i really liked her, and it kinda put stress on us just getting to know each other... i generally didnt play my cards right, and just became uninteresting to her.. too easy to have probably. know what i mean? so its not that she doesnt know how i feel about her - well, she probably doesnt know that it hurts to not ever hear from her... but i dont feel like telling her that, because I know in her mind she 'll be like "wtf, now i HAVE to call him or his feelings will be hurt?" bottom line is, to talk to her anymore will just degrade me further in both our eyes. the only way i could talk to her would be if i didnt have a care for her in the world - so until that happens... she aint hearing from me. i guess i should have just thrown her into bed early. but i was thinking that that wouldnt have been right with her.. ahh fuck it .
so i read some of that website. Mostly it talks of self control, one of the harder parts of (my) life. But yeah, it reinforced what i was thinking already. kind of reasuring. thanks for the nonjudgemental comments.
Talk about hitting the nail on the head, I know your situation totally. She does not understand that I would appreciate to be affirmed she cares by calling me, or something. Too crazy. Hope the best for ya man, try to talk to her, if it is never said then you never tried. If you say it and she still does nothing then the door for her.
(had sex with michel's roommate). then 3 days later her roommate brought her over and we played guitar for each other (michel and i), and we all watched a movie together...strange days ahead. (her roommate and i are keeping this secret, because my good and crazy friend is into jenni, the roommate.)...
so im thinking the moral of the story is... ignoring the girl may get her to come over and play guitar with you. It may also give you enough room for (error) to have sex with her roommate.... at which point, you go to bed and think about it tomorrow.
