well i was just attacked.. .had a chair broke. then when after being abused for a while, i was beating the cabinet with a part of the chair... HE came out to get it from me. i was scared so i struggled... it ended it pocking him in the face (his strength there, not mine).... he has threatened to put me in jail. aka... lie. after he hit me numerous times in the pst and even when the cops were there i never pressed charges. well, i want to end my life. im sick. im sad. im worthless. i dont belive in hell so i might do it. i tired of all this. someone tlel me it will be okay.. that i can do it and it's not wrong.
somehow you need to find the strength to get out of that situation. in my two plus years posting here, I have never read a good word about it, except for once when you were posting honeymoon photos. like cards, sometimes in life, you need to look at a situation and know when to fold and play the next hand that is dealt.
im scared, ryan. im sooo upset. it hurts. i really want someone to tell me it's okay to take these pills.
doubt you find that here. last I checked Dr. Kervorkian doesn't post in these forums. I will tell you that I've know you've overcome a lot in the past, and that those experiences will help you get beyond this. That's not saying it will be easy, but you WILL make it through. Perhaps my least favorite gd song, but think of touch of grey
im scared, ryan. listen. im sick and im worthless and im hurting. please tell me it's okay to go gracefully. im tiring of suffering.
Sure take all that shit and then what? More important .......for what??????? You have two legs, a brain and you know what you need to do........so what is stopping you. You hold the answer to that one.....ready yet? Stop this crap and do no harm to you and time to take control and do what......... Walk away. Peace and light and much love to you....it is time to walk hon. Heather
Trish, the thing about you is that you have a weak mind but a strong heart. And there's nothing wrong with that. I have a weak heart and a strong mind. But because of this, you often think that what you're feeling now is all the feeling there will ever be. Which is untrue. You cannot let the past dictate what you believe the future will be. The future can and will be anything you make it to be now, not what you made it to be yesterday. Never, ever think with your heart. You have a brain for a reason, and I know you can use it.
i have a strong mind at times, eliot. but when you're SCARED TO FUCKING DEATH it takes away your mind. thank you everyone for your comments. i dont know what to do. it hurting so much. can someoen give me permission?
Give you permission......what are you like 12????? You need a kick in the ass not permission.....well I am the kick in the ass. Get back to reality and life and deal with this and walk away. I am not going to give you permission I am instead going to bitch a little. Hurts like a bugger but that too is life.......get on with life as it is worth it. Permission to live and go forward is granted....... Take care of you as you matter!!
you threw a stone into the pond, you are now experiencing the ripples. i read somethin about this the other day... a boys grandfather had died, and his mom(aka the author) told him it was meant to happen, and he was a teenager and didnt buy that... but she didnt bother trying to explain... then she throws a rock into the pond, and the ripples touch his shoe. and thats the perfect way for it to happen. cause and effect, choice and consequence... we are constantly experiencing this... but you are right where you need to be,that just has always made sense to me. i dont believe in 'at the wrong place at the wrong time' life has its way with us sometimes, and sometimes its way of telling us through some intense situations to wake up learn something, and strengthen ourselves ,our lives, and situation. i hope that made sense...
thanks alex. it just hurts because.. i was involved briefly with a wonderful person and told him i wanted to try to save my marriage... i tried to give dan (my husband) my all and he left me with this. i feel so retarded and.... everything else.
don't feel retarded trish... you made a mistake(remember, choice and consequence), thats apart of life...you have a right to be pissed off with your situation... you get better as you go, you live and you learn. take what you can from this experience, and decide if you really want to keep at it. it doesnt sound like you want to, but i havent really been following your fights until now. maybe you just need to move on... go live with jerry420 =P
I have been around for awhile(in life),and can say that I as a young'n wanted to do the same thing,thought nothing to live for,and so on. But ya know,there was help for me/all I had to do was accept it. And you can do the same/accept the help there is . It's not the end of the world,trust me. You have so much to gain,you are a beautiful person,and we all have problems,and with a little help,we can over come them. If you need someone to talk to,or yell at-to get it out! email me.
