Please read! Your inspiration would mean alot to me!

As some may know I have been for quite a while.. Although I dont have many posts, I do browse the forums on daily to every other day basis.. Anyways, down to subject of this thread..

Basically I have a Cocaine problem.. Please read on.. Your input and advice will be greatly appreciated.. I pretty much tried it when I was first influenced by the drug for the first time.. Thinking, I would just try it once to see what it was all about.. Big mistake.. For several months it was just a weekend ordeal, sometimes skipping a weekend here and there.. Then it just kept progressing.. 3-4x a week for several months.. Now 4-6x a week.. Except this last week because I have been studying for this job.. (BTW, great server job that will average 100-200 bucks a night..)

However, it is easy for me to avoid the situation all together, but I don’t want to break off best friendships in the process of doing so.. Basically, my best friend is completely hooked on it.. When he wakes up. after work (if he actually has a job, spoiled!)., All day and all night.. This has been the daily routine for months (7-8).. I am typically the co-dependant.. He gets it for me because I don’t want have access to it 24/7, so I don’t know the dealers number.. He knows of me, but I have never actually done the transaction..
Enough of the background.. Basically, I really need to get a grasp on my addiction (hard to admit).. It has ruined alot of my friendships and several opportunities with some beautiful girls.. I am going to try to help my best friend turn his life around, at the same time.. Changing mine around as well.. The sad reality is though.. If I cant break my friends addiction, I will be forced with the decision on completely cutting him out of my life..

Can you please share your wisdom, advice, comments, etc with me.. I will greatly appreciate it..

 

oh I am sorry sweetie. I know this is hard to do. If you have a parent who won't make it worse go to them, they will help if not see your doctor. You may also want to call your local YMCA they have therapist availible on a sliding scale based on income. If you have insurance it may cover rehab. Go to your doctor and get an anti-depressant so you don't bottom out too hard for too long. I tried coke once and it was too good I knoew I couldn't ever do it again or I would be an addict. It is not a matter a willpower for you it is a matter of getting help. If you still have my email feel free to use it if you need to talk.

 

Go to NA. Keep going back, it works if you work it.

 

Been there, done that, different drug though. Try NA. It can help. If that doesn't work, there's always rehab. That's what it took for me. As for your friend, how much of a friend can ya be if he's only around when the dope is? Where's he going to be when the shit really hits the fan?

 

I have to go with everything said above. Also, you mentioned you want to help your friend, and then went on to say helping yourself. You really need to work on yourself first. It really is up to your friend to get his/her help. There is no convincing another person to stop using. They have to be ready on their own or it will never work. It sounds like you may be ready to take the first step. Go for it.. It will save your life.

 

My friend wants to quit as well.. We were good friends before this whole cocaine episode.. However, my friend is alot further into the downward spiral..

I really dont think I need to go as far as NA or Rehab.. I am prepared to make a change, but I do believe I can implement my self control to resolve my situation..

 

thats the drug talking. there is no self control.

 

I think the only way to get complete rid of the addiction would be to go to NA or rehad, you and your friend together.
But if you think you can do it without rehab or NA, then you need to work on yourself before you can begin to help someone else.
Because it will just make it that much harder for you. Or if you think you both can do it together and be eachothers support and such, then I do that.
But I wish you luck and just know you can do this..

 

the answer lies in you. believe it or not, you know what to do. now, just do what you know you should do, okay?

 

interval is right... you know deep down somewhere within you what it is you need to do.....

 

This is true. You can't be a little bit addicted any more than you can be a little bit pregnant. Go get help. And avoid treatment centers if you can. They tend to do more harm than good.

 

I think you should just grow a garden of wonderful flowers and admire them all day. Think happy thoughts.

-with love, peace and tranquility
hhf

 

LMFAO!! that was so funny.

 

hmmmmmmm? NA is good, it really does help, get a sponser as soon as you can, they are really are helpful and are there for you when you get that urge to use.

I found it easier to quit by not being around the drug at all. There is always that connection, I mean like when you see your best friend, its like you wanna do a line type thing, yes you guys were friends before and all, BUT from my experience, and now working around drug addicts and such who are going through their court ordered "program" they all seem to say it was much easier to cut all ties to the friends that used with them. Afterall, if he is your best friend he will understand your need to take a break from being around him, and it sounds like you want to quit and he maybe doesnt want to. The temptation is just to strong, especially since he is the source.

Seriously tho, drugs ruined my marriage, I know what that shit can do to a person and to those around them, I lived it, just like a whole buncha people on these forums have. Drugs suck, i ruins ya.

I am happy to see tho, that you are aware of what is going on and you want to quit, thats the first step.

 

shes right, step 1 is done, youve admitted it and all which is great. Now your on the shore with your feet wet, now you just need to dive into the wave.

 

i got clean from cocaine, meth, weed, and acid almost 6 years ago, and im happy to be free from drugs... try NA it saved my ass!

http://www.soberrecovery.com/links/narcoticsanonymous.html