of an emotional break down. i hurt my best friend in a way i never thought possible and she is no longer speaking to me. in the past two weeks i have lost two of the most loved people in my life to coke addictions. i have given up on school and hate the fact that i dont care. on top of it all, i was sexually harrassed and nearly raped by a guy i thought was a good friend of mine just last night. all i need is someone to talk to. someone to connect to. someone who will not judge, but just understand. i am lonely, i am scared, i am lost, i am sixteen, i am physically and emotionally exhausted. all i want to do is cry, surrender, forget all my responsibilities doubts and fears. i want someone to look me in face and reassure me that it will be ok. i do not know what to do.
I've never been down that road so unfortunatley I can't be much help. It sounds like the first thing you need to do is get your addiction under control, once your over that you can start healing the relationships with those you've hurt. As much as I disagree with the concept of public school, it is important in this society to get an education. There are other options, however choosing the one thats right for you can somewhat difficult. I'm not sure about the circumstances surrounding the harrassment, but he is obviously not a friend at all if he would consider doing that to you. Yes it hurts to be decieved like that, trust me I know, you will get over it. Everything will be ok, however you must be motivated and want to make it ok. But the most important thing right now is to get a good nights sleep, and forget about everything until tommorow. All I can offer is my advice to be taken with a grain of salt, theres only so much support I can give over internet, and for that I apologize. I'll be on here for a while if you need to talk.
I don't know how much help I can be, but they tell me I am a good listener and I can relate to alot of the things you are saying. Feel free to PM at any time!
If it helps, my very best friend in the entire world broke my heart terribly a few years ago. I was in love and my boyfriend ended up cheating on me with her, then falling in love with her and they were together for two years. As betrayed as I felt, three years later, we are the best of friends. She lives halfway across the country now, but we're the closest we've ever been. If our friendship could withstand heartbreak and thousands of miles between us, hopefully yours will mend itself in time as well. I'm really sorry to hear you've been having such a rough time. You can add me to your list of people to PM anytime, I'm a good shoulder to cry on.
thank you guys for responding. it means a lot to me, well...as much as an internet forum could mean any way. i just got home last night and had no one i felt i could speak to, so i posted my thoughts here. and no mellow, im not the one with the addiction problems, but thanks for the advice, even though i just recieved it this morning, i did get a really good nights sleep and i feel a lot better now. thanks everyone for listening and offering your support, its kinda comferting to know that people are capable of being compassionate and kind to some random teenager they've never met. *sigh* blah, i'll get through this. . . . .
I could lie to you and tell you it's gonna be alright, but you gotta make the best of wat you have, it might get better, might get worse, but i do hope everything works out in a good way, all you can do is try to hold on and stay strong
