Hiya, I'm 15, and I'll be 16 in 4months. I run into a lot of crazy guys, of which I end up making bad decsions with.(sorry not the best speller n_n)I've lied, cheated and worst of all.. disgraced myself.(my cat of my lap is making it hard to type, =3)There's really no excuse, when you could of avoided a situation. But there are people, who seem to not put 2 and 2 together. Kinda, like me. Sometimes we'll do anything, to feel irrasistable. And usually the cost is high. I want so much to be loved, held and cherished by the men I fall inlove with. When we find those guys who do love and cherish us back, we seem to slip up, and lose the best thing thats ever happen to us because we dont realize we got it till we've lost it. I knew better, when I left with a Teenaged guy that there was a certain something on his mind. But i chose to ignore that internal instinc. We arrived at his friend's house and they had alcohol. O tell me, what would the chances of a person like me would turn it down? At first I was hesitant, but began to drink along. Soon my body felt, this amazing feeling. He wanted me to follow him and I did, w.o. thinking. You can only image what happened. I'm not exactly sure what all was said anymore, its so cloudy. In a sense I was taken advantage of, but now it seems too faded to make any kind of judgement. I still talk to him, and even have extreme feelings for him. It's weird how life throws things at you. It expects you to catch it, but it ends up knocking you the fuck out. .:``*+much love....+*``:.
