I am now in a crazy state of mind. My mental health is at stake. If I don't turn 17 soon then I don't know what will happen. All my rights are being ripped away from me just as fast as I got them. Padded rooms here I come...
i need to turn 17 so i can leave my family behind. because at 17 i am allowed by my mother to leave the house and live with my boyfriend....hopefully were still together...anyways im in a crazy state of mind because i have a lot to worry about....i have my mom on my back all the time...monitering everything...i have to keep secrets from my best friend because im going out with her brother...im also depressed because my friends and family members think im some wild child thats a slut....but thats NOT true....they assume and prejudge before they know anything...im also dealing with school *yay*....and my glorious social life...god i hate it....ummm thats pretty much it OH WAIT theres more...not only am i going out with my best friends brother im also deeply and madly in love with him ive had sex with him the whole nine yards....theres just one problem none of his family can know about us...and not only is that the best part but i hardly get to see the only one that i truely do love...i see all the guys at school daily but the one i care and love is so far away from me......now tell me all this cant put u in a crazy state of mind...btw ive already tried killing myself about 6 times.....not bragging or anything just so u know im not fully sane.....
thats funny........."allowed" by your mother........rather ironic isnt it..........if you elft the house you wouldnt be under her rules any more therefore she cant not "allow" you to go Im definitaly not suggesting you leave home why did you try to kill yourself>?
Why isn't his family allowed to know that you are together? Life get's tough, it's a stuggle, but ya know, it gets better. You've just gotta push your way through the bad and at the end it will make you a stronger/better person because of it. Are you receiving any kinda help at the moment? because if you've tried to commit suicide 6times before you really should be.
THis might seem like a bold statement, but I dont think you can go insane from outside situations. What im saying is, youve lsited your worries as being your physical life. When you start worrying about your thoughts, even though your life is peachy, then you have some larger problems. But dont freak out if your thoughts do scare you, it doesnt mean you are insane, Insanity, is schizophrenia, and you dont develop that normally until your early 20's so I think theres a very low chacne of you actually going insane. Tell us whats in your head and why you tried to kil lyourself. Because I cant imagine its just because you cant be with your boyfriend
