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steffan.. just had my heart broken.. sucks.

damn it i'm still mad. still hurting.. and just caught myself looking at personal ads.. AGAIN.. argh.

theres just an emptiness there .. i know having a man might not be the thing i need to fill that void.. but hhmm.. i don't know

 

ouch, sorry to hear that miss mattie, wish i could give you a lollypop and make it all better, but the sugar is bad for you and they contain gelatin, probaly wouldnt help anyway.
do your best to shrug it off ok? its not like you dont have a million options in the long run

 

maybe it keeps happening becuase there might be alot of not so nice guys out there. Maybe they assume things they have no right to assume. Maybe you are so much wanting to be loved you miss the warning signs and they take advantage of your vulneralbility (spelled badly Im sure). Start all over again. (1) Seek freinds not lovers (2) let them show you through actions not physical acts how much they love you (3) make em wait for sex, kissing, hugs and shit is all good but before it gets real intimate have your own private goals you desire they achieve first for you (4) your kids if over age 4 are best at making the choice of who is real and who is not (5) make sure he sees you as a package deal and takes to the kids with honesty, as if they were his, him setting time aside for them to have fun on dates, like games in the park, ect (6) if your parents are around and part of your life be sure they see him and him them, they are good road blocks both good and bad (7) make him do something special for you for no reason but on his own, not being asked or told (8) pay close attention to what h says about you, its the little things a man notices about a woman when he is in love not needing a little action (9) you dont need to tell him your gun shy, infact that may attract the wrong guys and arm them with the ability to work ya down. (10) I will email you my date application and will have their background, credit and refrences checked for ya (JOKE).

 

heheh.. i try to do all that.. but some of these guys are really good liars.


i think the reason this one hurt so bad is because i've heard the same exact thing before. this is not the first man to leave me for an ex, but what really pisses me off.. this guy was trying his hardest to get back with his the whole time we were together and just straight lying to my face about it when i told him what i thought was going on. plus he claims she wouldn't take him back.. so he basically fucked things up with me.. for a woman that doesn't even want to be with him... just odd.

i want to give up.. but i know i won't. i'm going to have to set some limits and stick to them 110% next time.

i'm not shallow. i'm a kind person. i try and date men that have something about them that catches my attention. not just some pretty boy with money. gosh maybe i should try that... maybe my standards are too low. probably are with the resolts i've been getting.

 

your pretty funny there, lol on the standards theory. Never undervalue yourself, I just think that maybe you want it so badly (not sex but a relationship) that maybe you wish to not see the perspective problems until its too late. The old love is blind thing ya know.

Wish I could just say yup its all good and you will be in love the next day and live happily ever after but alas you know and I that it shall happen when it does. ALWAYS TRUST YOUR GUTS, dont second guess them bad boys. They are your instincts of defense. You feel funky about a situation a person then trust that. Always safeer than sorry. We would all hate to see them little toes not here.

 

yeah. i think that to myself sometimes.. "it's not supposed to be like this" i seriously feel i'm missing out.
diffently need to set higher standards.. maybe need someone that can peep talk me.. cus i just see my flaws and all the reasons NOT to be with me. okay maybe a few good reasons someone would wanna be with me

 

so what are your finer qualities that you feel you could outward protect to others that maybe says Im a wonderful independant woman, who has lots to offer but damn well expects to be treated like the fantastic person I am.

 

hhmm.. you know it'd be easier for me to list the "bad" stuff.. but i've gotta stop thinking like that if i wanna find someone thats not going to treat me like shit.


good stuff.. i'm healthy. i make cute kids. i'm a great mother. i know a lot about nutrition. i have all my teeth. i'm cute. :& i can cook. i can drive stick shift. i'm a good listener.

okay thats all i can think of right now .. i know theres more though

 

well we need to not advertise the production of kids, puts out the wrong idea, like they can be allowed to make more, way to soon for that.

So cute, cute kids, all healthy, you take care of yourself (teeth and looks) means you care about yourself thus expect that the take care of you too! Good cooks, and can drive a stick, means not afraid of being independent. Good listener could be taken as allowed to be lied to but also can mean carring if not lied to so ....

Attractive mother, independent, takes care of herself as well as her children, cares about her health and body but not against simple things. Can offer alot , kind heart, good listening skills, great cook a great friend. Would like a friend that can work into a companion, then maybe if your lucky perhaps more.


There hows that.

 

ahaha .. yeah that works for now.

 

so lets set ya up in them personal ads on this forum, add a pic and wella you will need a day planner to sort em all out

 

well i.. uuh.. umm.. i.. uuh one on here?
(all the "bad" reasons are suddenly floating the the surface)

hmm.. i don't know..

 

step up to the plate, atleast out here you are a bit safer, come on call it a practice run, you can do it, I will assist if ya want

 

hhmm.. maybe.. :& but like.. wouldn't all the guys that would be interested in have already messaged me?

now we're gonna get into the "what if's" and the .. but but but

 

just take it all one little step at a time, your trying to fly way to far into the future. As for already messaging ya its more like you do it just to cross that first bridge ya know, make that step that says 100% your out there, if no reply so be it, just a limited crowd but hell I never spoke to ya and spent time as a freind to talk with ya and feel quite glad I did actually.

 

hhmm okay..


i think i'm still too mad to write anything decent though

self doubt will come into play.. and it'll be horrible

 

whats to doubt, you seem very nice, pleasant, kinda comical, not all thinks she is the total bomb, so you are fine, take good look at self, think of what others in past mainly other woman thought was great about ya and let it flow

 

Well what a delightful person booga is, I am very happy I had the time to talk with her.