I need some advice I have to stop I need to stop. I'm only 17 I have my whole life ahead of me These drugs don't control me. This is the last time I come down from amphetamines. All the other times were great but now. Cigarettes don't control me either. I have to quit, because if I don't I will die. I'm tired of flying. The colors from the bad acid havn't decreased even in the slightest. They've haunted me for about a year now. It didn't make sense before but it makes sense now don't do drugs (dawn dude rugs) its so simple why didn't I think of it before. I've lost alot because of my actions and I'm not proud of them. I need to stop crying. is their anyone out their who can help me, you know like give me any advice or anything of that nature. I'm really really depressed. I'm like freaking out. I'm tired of being a drug addict. I mean a little pot here and there i'm talking like absinth and Adderall (Dexedrine) LSA and DMT (homemade improper synthesis the kind of shit that makes the little multicolored stars permanent) Its the cigarrettes and the Adderall I'm worried about the most I'm so addicted to cigarettes that I take the left over butts and I remove the filter from the tube and smoke it either that or I just smoke it using a pop-can. I used to drink entire bottles of mothwash just to get drunk I need to quit I'm sorry to bother you hippie folk with this monkey on my back, but I'm searching for advice
honestly the problem is in yo head. thats all i can say to help ya. get it out, by simply learning about you, your *self*, wtf is wront wit your self man, thats where its at, not the drugs.
PIck what you most NEED to stop. get whatever professional help is out there including lame groups. You'd be amazed how much a lame group can help because someone will be able to call you down on your shit. Toss the Adderall: that's shite even for those who are prescribed it. Quit the speed that's physically the worst for you. promise yourself on the others that you will only consume the good stuff when the universe offers. (the Universe is not as generous as we would like) no more for the hell of it. Treat these chems with respect, and yourself, too. Use is different from abuse. Learn your limits of control and operate within them. (occasional tripping v. weekly)
