So i've been struggling lately... actually since my 30th birthday, which was about 6 mths ago. I'm trying to figure out who I am, what I want to do with my life. I used to write all the time, then a bad experience with grad school killed that in me- I haven't written for a good 2 years. I don't necessarily want to define myself by anything (though I used to define myself as a writer). But my partner gets irked at me because I change my interests all the time. Is that so bad? Is it bad to have many likes? I'm always into something... always passionate about something. Just my passion shifts from time to time. I am, and will always be, 1. an activist 2. a lesbian 3. into music 4. into tats 5. into books I guess I don't really know what the point of this post is... other than to ask if anyone else has experienced the same thing. Thanks for putting up with my mindless ramblings.
maybe you shouldnt say what you will allways be bcuz doing that will lesson the chance for change that may create the light in you agauin my freind good luck though
Seriously... When I went to college I started out in Pre-med, then Mass Comm, then I fell head over heals in love with sociology. After college I moved around, tried different jobs and finally turned out as an outdoor recreation specialist. (until my job was eliminated) All that time (25 years) despite the different jobs, education, etc, I also studied computers. I've been building them for my family and friends. Over the years, I've built 54 of them.(we have more computers in our house than most people have phones and clocks) Believe me, my wife couldn't understand it at first. Currently, I work in an R&D lab. It's not sociology, but it pays good.( it's there for me because of my other interests) Hang in there my friend. You'll be alright.
Thanks Oakie... I can understand where you are coming from and you sharing your experience means a lot to me. Thank you for understanding.
You are like everybody else.....similar problems, similar questions, similar attitudes, similar feelings........what makes one of us different from the other ??? Go to the twilight zone and check for yourself...............(ó_ò).............
Damn girl. You know I would think we are one in the same. I'm about 10 years younger than you, but i'm feeling the same way. Most of my friends are off at college and almost graduating! I took one year of classes and realized I was in way over my head. Now here I am ... still pondering where I want my life to lead me. The funny thing is that we as human beings are told from a young age that WE need to direct our lives, WE are in charge of what happens ... but the truth is sister, we have NO control over that ... Life is like the cool breeze in the summer sky and we are only fragile kites. I think if you keep your passion for doing what you love to do, somthing will find you sooner or later and you wll realize what your place here on this planet. Even if that is only putting a smile on a strangers face, like you did mine. Best wishes to you my dear sister, keep your head high, you have a beautiful shining spirit ... let it SHIIIINNEEEEE!
It takes a lifetime to figure that out... the trick is to not get bent out of shape about it. Just figure out your likes, surround yourself with good people, commit random acts of kindness, and move forward from there. Things just fall into place.
