Well I'm generaly the girl that always finds something wrong with life.............. I've really always considered myself a hippie but I'm not sure I've always known exactly what that ment. I just moved to Tallahasse Florida and I don't know anyone so that means no friends but I think I'm finially begining to accept things for what they are. I'm done rushing things that take time, and I'm also tired of focusing on only what I don't have. I was in the park today just sitting on the grass and reading drop city and listening to my mp3 player and everything just sort of clicked. I was listening to the song blister in the sun by the violent femmes and I had a moment and I had to dance. I may have looked crazy but I was happy. I really want this feeling to last. I like it and I feel free and I feel like it's ok to be alone and I feel like it's ok to just be free. Like I don't have to have the typical group of peeps I run to "hang" with every day. I'm really OK with just being by myself because I think I like myself.
its great to feel free... I know how it is just sitting there surronded by hidden beauty and everything makes sence for that moment. You just got to stay positive...its ahrd soemtimes...but it really has helped me. I used to be that way... I could always find something wrong something to complain about. But I decided that after I moved... after I setaled in...I was still a little dperessed....but something turned my life around and I decided from there on in ...Id be positive. And start over new. And let me tell you it was such a relef. I have so many wonderful new friends who udnerstand me...and I understand them...who will just sit and absorb the beauty. I might just be rambling now sorry. But I understand. Stay positive...and you'll stay freee
