ok, so, i was laying in bed a few weeks ago. and i'm not sure if i was just dreaming or what, but, jesus came to me. and he told me to accpet him, and he would bestow gifts upon me. i asked him to first prove that he was real by giving me the gifts first, but he said "no, first you must accept me with all your heart". so i thought "ok, i'll give it a whirl" so i did. and i felt the love of god enter me. it was so intense. like a warm blanket. but then i started asking jesus questions. like, "how can god allow childrens prayers for food and shelter to go unanswered? how can he even allow children to starve?" and he didn't answer. he even looked uncomfortable. then i got this distinct sense of...bribery. almost like an army recruiter. he wanted me on god's side. so then i said "sorry jesus, i just can't do that." so the wonderful sense of love left me. but it left behind something...better. the sense of self-empowerment. so then a few days later, god himself came to me, and tried to convert me. same sort of, half dream state. this time it almost felt like a security sort of thing. "join me and serve me". and i turned god down. i told him "i like being in control of my own life." and then he left. so now i keep having dreams where they call out for me. i don't know. it's been getting really weird. so, i decided to post here, to see if you people have any advice/and or ideas.
This is my belief. Christianity is out to prove that God and Jesus is good. Have faith in them and be saved from Hell and all that. The truth is, God is that evil you must save yourself from. God is a drug. Christianity, is a drug. Christianity is a means of controlling the hordes of mindless slaves that inhabit this Earth. It has enslaved thought and reason for more than a millenium. But there are good Christians, yes, but I believe they are preaching the wrong message. It is not God we should strive to work for, it is life we should strive to work for. Humanity, nature, every living thing. There is nothing wrong with the thought of God, but the way in which Christianity has presented it is wrong. Our Lord, HIM, why him? We should place our faith in a "him", I'd rather place my faith in something devoid of gender. And Jesus, well Jesus never wrote a word. You saved yourself from the real devil in my opinion. Just my 2 cents.
hey, bannedindc, those were my thoughts almost exactly. the idea of serving a god almost seems like servitude.
