After another difficult night getting Leane settled down, I've been starting to feel really run down. I think that I'm coming down with mono yet again, and I already feel crappy, and the poor baby girl has been so restless the last few nights. I think that it's due to teething. But as much as I try to keep my cool, after the 6th time of trying to put her to sleep, I wanted to scream. I was in a foul mood. She was so tired, but just couldn't stay asleep. I usually would nap with her, but I just wanted to strech out and be free to cough my lungs out without worrying I was going to scare her and wake her up. My opi walks into the room and says, "do you honestly think that you can handle this?" I asked, "handle what?" he said, "being a mother...I don't think this is right for you." Then when Leane eventually settled down and went to sleep, I went upstairs to put my dishes in the sink and he starts saying, "you need to learn more patience." I lost it. I just couldn't hold it in anymore. There's only so much saying, "this is what I believe is right," or, "it's hard to calm your self down when baby's stressed because you know that being stressed is making baby more stressed." I told him that he doesn't see me at home, and that I have lots of people commenting on just how patient I am with her, including my omi....to which he said, "yeah, I don't see you at home, I have no reason to believe you." She told me to not think too much about it, since he's always been like that. She said that he never lifted a finger or was awlays at work when they were raising their kids, but always had something to say about what she was doing wrong. I feel like I'm loosing my head here, constantly being critisized. I yelled at him tonight...I'm not proud of it, but I'm turning into a very hard-headed person and I have no patience for people who find it necessary to nit-pick everything I do! It really wears you out...I feel bad for giving that feeling off to Leane, but I felt like i was going crazy. And just hearing someone standing there overmy shoulder saying, "who cares if you don't feel good? You need to learn how to calm down," makes me want to do mean things to them. Ugh, sorry for the rant. I needed to vent...
*hugs* You are a good mother, and it's totally understandable that you're stressed out. Leane probably does notice, but she must know that she's being taken good care of and that it'll pass, so it probably won't affect her too greatly in the long run. Hope you feel better soon.
What does opi and omi mean?? I'm trying to figure out the family relations to understand the situation. I realize that people offline refer to relatives using different terms but could people atleast provide a definition of their terms? Or just use the generic terms when posting on an open forum? I remember years ago having to google words like yoni...why can't you just say vagina for all general purposes? Not all of us are ,obviously, as cultured. Ok...carry on. I hope you feel better, mono sucks!
no, it's a spin on the german form of oma and opa, meaning grandma and grandpa....sorry for the misunderstanding:&
I really hope so...I find it hard to be at all cuddly when I'm feeling like that; sick and irritated, do you know what I mean? I mean, who does? I just am scared that she does think that I love her when I'm feeling like that. Well, on the other hand, when I'm standing there begging her to go to sleep and trying to hold her legs down to help her from kicking off her blankets or holding her hands so she doesn't yank my hair, she starts to laugh and smile. So it can't be bugging her too much.....lol
***hugggsss*** We all have moments/days like that--well i do at least! Maybe just tell your Opi to stop being such a grouchy old man, and leave it at that (obviously he was wrong to say what he did, but if he's been that way this long...well, sometimes it isn't worth the trouble!). My kids have a great-grandma they call Oma. i love it, it's cute and it helps distinguish her from the sea of grandparents those kids have!
yeah, you're probably right ryvre. Just now, I was feeding leane at the computer and he took her away and said, "lets take you outside for some fresh air for once," I take her outside at least once a day every day!!!!!!!!!!!!! He wouldn't talk to me, either.
I'm sorry you're being criticized. From your posts here, you sound like a GREAT mom. Just keep doing what you're doing and Leane will be just fine. ((((Love and wellness)))) I hope you feel better soon!
i had an oma and opa too, (it's germanic) i would be so mad if a relative of mine said that to me after a fussy baby, sick mama night, sheesh, you are human after all and the most perfect mamas of the world do have days like that once in awhile. add to that the stress of not even being in your own house. i would have yelled too! try to ignore the negative comments as best you can! kathy
thanks for all the kind words, they really do make me feel better. ((((hugs to everyone)))) I had a talk with him this morning in the car, and stressed that all moms have a breaking point. It doesn't happen often, but sometimes things just overwhelm you. I don't know if he really listened, but I said what I had to.
