POEM NUMBER ONE They all bowed down Not to the king but to the crown They gave all love to the heavens and none to earth They sought in vain for things beyond their reach And took for granted the ground beneath their feet Forsook the gift beyond compare In search of deathless light not theirs And with the right kind of eyes You can see where the hope drowned And the dream died The lights still fly And the gods still cry Western wind blows hard on Eastern skin Food for the fire that burns for their sin And I’m blowing away to the new day Blown far and wide and low and high From pillars of stone to the oceans in the sky
POEM NUMBER TWO If I had to care about something If I was going to be tied be down You’d be the first one I’d be bound to The first to keep me on the ground If I tried I could be free But that’s not what you want for me What you want is best I don’t care about the rest You might be just thinking of yourself You’ll share my love with everyone else And if the truth may seem different you say It just only seems to be that way If I was going to be a slave I wouldn’t want to work for anyone else If I was going to hide in a cave You know that I would only want your help If I cared to own a phone You know I’d give you the very first call But seeing as things are different I’m not going to care bout you at all Things may once have happened in that way But you know now we’re living in a different day And you can’t be sad about the changes come And you can’t be mad, you’re the only one not having fun The glowing bull cannot hear the screams of the burning
POEM NUMBER THREE Did somebody tell you your dreams are made of gold Did somebody tell you to mine it in others’ souls Did somebody make you cry when you were young Are you still clenching your fists now, your pain unsung Do you think you’re getting older but no wiser for your years Is time stalking you like a shadow, fortifying all your fears Are you reaching for a diamond in a tower too tall And now you’re losing your ground and starting to fall Tell me, do you know you’re living in a stolen home Do you feel guilt yet? For things which you cannot atone Do you feel any safer now that you’re buried in concrete Did it make you feel more right, cuz you stood and dug in your feet Did it make you happy, the money you made? Did you buy lots of things with it did you get laid Did you feel real good inside being a willing slave Some real satisfaction in working without pay for day How generous you are, giving your money away Buying a good conscience with your charity Are you closer to god now, or are you closer to grief? Are you a righteous man doing all you can or are you just a thief? Does it really make you weaker, in being wrong? Well I know you’re a fool if you only hear one song Is your love with your woman growing with the years? Did you promise what you cannot control, what you feel
POEM NUMBER FOUR I’ve thrown myself off the deep end And I may never come back again I’m just calling to say goodbye No time to really tell you why Lets just say things may never be as they were before We may just learn to shit on what we formerly adored
POEM NUMBER FIVE Forgo the dream of a brave new world For the comfort of the present I fear I may have chained myself to the key That I thought would set me free And now I’m dragging it along And I can’t achieve lift off And the words I speak in acknowledging Are but another link in the chaining And there can be no freedom had And no liberation gained But the willed ignorant pretending For in knowing That in knowing We’re carrying out the function Of the controlling Those that think deep Know what thought to have depth by those in shallow water Can be touched with the feet In the process of becoming I forgot what is was I’m supposed to be Spared no conscience to finally see Confused the ends with the means And now I’m everything that it seems I’m no one that I was I’m dancing above Above and above of above And I’m laughing for the war And I’m laughing for the lies And I’m laughing at your disguise You don’t intend to wear And I don’t intend to care
POEM NUMBER SIX The truth will set you free It hasn’t done that much for me Instead it has imprisoned me In a world of set standards and constants Things were better when I was naïve The truth was whatever I wanted it to be Maybe I wasn’t so childish after all If you seek pleasure and comfort my friend Then I warn you the truth is not your end The truth cannot set you free The truth is not the prison key You may learn the limits of your cell And the lonely extremities of your hell But you’ll be no closer to the clouds You say truth is all that truth can be But I don’t think you’re listening to me Whose truth are you taught to see While you settle for baseline reality Peer through the cracks in the wall It only goes to show What people say and what they know What people claim and what they do Your lies always come back to you The hourglass lying on its side And all of time stands by Suddenly gravity holds no sway And all the time drifts away’ And yet I still seek the truth I’m still seeking that old hag like a hound
POEM NUMBER SEVEN I don’t know where I am I don’t know where I was I don’t know where I’m going And I don’t care because It feels good and that’s all that matters A green cloud embraces my lungs The breath before me coarse and crimson I’ve wakened something deep inside I’ve shed my old skin and I’ve Let go of some shitty reality I don’t care to bring up again Swimming this mist before me Hugging close to the ground Doesn’t wanna come up But doesn’t wanna settle down I know where I am I remembered where I was I don’t care where I’m going I don’t care because I just wanna get the fuck outta this place Make it to the clear Climb out of this hole or maybe Dig through to the other side Desperate escape Its do or die Gotta get away Spread my wings and fly I want to chew you Chew you down to the core See what makes the beast Struggle and rise and roar I want to chew you Savor your flavor and restore I want you to numb me Suck my senses dry I want you to touch me Before these barren nerves die I want you to touch me Touch my soul Before its all over Before I let go I chased you away Please come back to me Surely without your light I will die Shrivel and fall like flower Become extinct in these black bowers While you hide behind the eternal night I chased you away I never want you to leave again You scared me so much my friend Surely your absence was the end You’re my one and only true friend
POEM NUMBER EIGHT I’m tracking a feeling I felt it just a moment ago Brief and fleeting tingle Wasn’t cold wasn’t hot Nor something in-between Did it hurt? I cannot tell! It’s hard to die Wasn’t seen or heard I just can’t find the word I don’t even know if I liked it But I want to know more What was that feeling for? And I may never feel this way again I know I’ve never felt this way before I feel like a sad song that’s been going on for too long And honest I don’t want to complain It’s just I fear I may go insane I must break open my own brain It might just be the only way
POEM NUMBER NINE You try to act like you’re okay But your eyes betray The true character of your soul I see distress is in your mind And I know you’re not the kind To stand confidently in the midst Of the war path of the tempest And it’s so cold Everywhere you go And nothing anyone says or does Will make you warm to the touch And it’s so sad Everything is bad And nothing anyone says or does Will make me care that much You’re right to despise this world of ours’ But your pessimism doesn’t make it any more bearable When we die We’re gonna laugh thinking back Such silly things dragged us down Don’t be afraid to smile once and awhile
POEM NUMBER TEN You think you’re meant for someone and only one? Who put such crazy thoughts in your head? If he gave you that opinion then maybe you should give him away Ladies, ladies, ladies, you can love around ain’t nobody gonna hurt you You can love everything and everyone in every goddamn town ain’t nobody gonna say a word to you You have all the love and lust in all the world and for its sharing with the many not the few With Aphrodite in the lead, please fulfill all of my needs and I promise I will do the same for you With all the fury and the fire of a lifetime of desire this I will do There’s no need to be ashamed it’s only nature woman Be safe and clean and the fountain of pleasure won’t ever stop flowing You may have skin But do you have substance You may taste good but will you fill me up Or will I be hungry again in an hour Candies and cookies are so sweet Tastier than vegetables and whole wheat Fill me up but tingle my tongue I like em easy and I like em young Flavor my food with ups and downs Snakes and ladders tumbling to the ground
ELEVENTY BILLION Can we only create, destroy, enjoy And if all I can do is make you feel Then all art is pornography You’re taking a big risk living you know it’s true When death comes a knocking what the fuck are you gonna do? Won’t matter if you’re going 90 or praying or passed out on the floor When your time is up it’s up and you won’t be doing any breathing anymore
But I don’t think you’re listening to me Whose truth are you taught to see While you settle for baseline reality Peer through the cracks in the wall It only goes to show What people say and what they know What people claim and what they do Your lies always come back to you The hourglass lying on its side And all of time stands by Suddenly gravity holds no sway And all the time drifts away’ And yet I still seek the truth I’m still seeking that old hag like a hound[/QUOTE] You are being heard by the old hag that hounds seek, but do not find, for they do not know the scent. Thank you, for putting into words and visions, the experiences of 60 years. You are blessed and cursed, as I, but holy, among men for the acceptance and appreciation of this existence. Thank you my friend. Thank you for a blessed gift of your soul. Ansara
