I really do want to kill myself....

Like, bad. Nothing is going right and I am more depressed than I've ever been in my whole life. I wish I were dead and I have no one to talk about it with.

 

Sometimes things go as you want, sometimes they do not. Is it really worth dying for something that is not as important as you might think?

 

Lots of people wish they were dead. Lots of people have nobody to talk to. I am sure you're not the only one.

 

Do it! Do it! Do it! Do it!

I mean, don't do it! Think of the children!

 

Well you know I life does suck. But life is what you make it, even if your in a hard rut. Try looking on the positive, I know its hard sometimes. But if you need to talk pm me, feel better.

But don;t kill your self, things probley will start looking up. Maybe not to day, or tomorrow or in a week, in a month, or a year, but things change remember that. It could change tomorrow it could change next week, in a month, in a year. Anything can change.

 

sometimes it's time to stop what you're doing,start driving,walking or hitchhiking ---never mind where you are going--just get going until something works.Could be a mile--could be 1000 miles--makes no differance.Drop everything familiar and START a new life.IT CAN BE DONE JUST DO IT and you will be amazed.Especially if you tell no one. Make your own luck.----------Yes ,I've done it----and it always works out!Takes guts.You have 'em?

 

god...i hate it when people say they want to kill themselves blah blah. Your probably more fortunate then alot of the world and sad just because things right now are a wee bit tough. So many people have a million times harder then you and guess what...they manage to fuckin survive. Are you some poor child in africa? no. so...not to be harsh or anything...suck it the fuck up, get over it and eventually the bad will pass.

 

Why are you depressed?

 

Think well, once done it can't be undone. Have you read the play "Huis-Clos" by Sartre? What if you get into a place like that??

 

Things are starting to go better, but I keep having these mood swings.

This has been happening to me since I was around 20 years old. I have no idea why. I just go through these depressions where I feel so horrible and out of control that I don't want to live.

 

I agree, though I am not encouraging it or anything.

 

Have you seen a doc about it? Maybe meds can help you thru rough days.

 

EXACTLY, took the words out of my mouth.

 

I'd like to say, fuck everyone here who's giving her shit for having feeelings. Serriously. If you're going to dump on someone, dump on a recurent depressive post who pulls this out for attention.

In response to our original poster. I can understand where you're coming from, and it's hard addressing negative thought with people because unfortunately not manuy people are able to talk about it. I hope you move towards an up swing soon.

 

It doesn't even matter. It's not like the physical world is even real anyways.

 

well its a good thing that you are letting it out here, but unfortuanltey we cant help you ... you need to go talk to someone cause no one wants to lose you!

 

I feel the same a lot recently, i had a tub of paractamol in my mouth, but then i spat them out, because i thought things would get better, but not im right back to where i was. My parents dont have faith in me, and they have a '3 year plan' of what my life will be like in three years, they think ill end up, leaving school with no qualifications, be knocked up, smoking, doing drugs. They hate me, and my sister does well at everything, so i feel like im constantly being compared. They dont approve of anything that i do, or any of my friends. My grades at school arent bad, i dont smoke, dont have sex, dont drink, or do drugs,im always honest with them, im not bad in school and have never been kicked out, or even been given a punishment, but theyre never proud. I hate my life, but surely it has too look up right? either that or im leaving home. sorry to ramble on with my problems, but, im sure things will look up, you must always have hope, right??

 

LSDPsychonaut: It doesn't even matter. It's not like the physical world is even real anyways.

(my quote thing isnt working so thatll hafta do)

hahahahahahahhahaha that's mint! about the OPs subject mostly i'd just have to say that we all have those feelings at one point or another in our lives, and you might go through with it and you might not, but either way i wish you luck.

 

mabey you have unipolar depression.......they told me i had it when i was 12
id offer to lend an ear but.......wed probly just end up depressing each other and doin the hole romio/juliet bit without the lovey dovey stuff

eh....iv felt depression so long its kind of like i have a psuedo happy state now...

but every now and then i get the real thing back...im normal inside and out(and mabey a little cuter thn most) just like everyone else and the world is that much clearer....

and beleive me......its worth living for

 

god...i hate it when idiots say "Are you some poor child in africa?" that's so stupid, they live in an other world, no comparrison at all...
You could be the richest, smartes, best looking and most well fed man on earth and still have a depression and want to kill yourself... It has nothing to do with that, stop mixing feelings and social stance...

To the poster, most of us go through those states, some once, some once in a while... Feelings isn't something we can help, but I bet if you just hang in there you'll outlast that feeling