Well I just took a pregnancy test to ease my fears, so I feel better now. I actually think I might be PMSing now because I feel gross. And I always get crazy/paranoid when I PMS as well.
Oh one more thing... does anyone know, do these sponges or contraceptive gels they have out there work well, and are they safe?? I want to use as much birth control as possible... But I don't want to put anything near my hoo-hah if it is not safe.
http://www.youngwomenshealth.org/femalebarrier3.html http://www.epigee.org/guide/sponge.html http://www.rxmed.com/b.main/b2.pharmaceutical/b2.1.monographs/CPS-%20Monographs/CPS-%20(General%20Monographs-%20A)/ADVANTAGE%2024.html They both contain spermicide, so if you're allergic to that, they probably aren't the best.
Thank you again Moon Flower. I want to personally thank you for being so helpful... In basically everything I have written through this experience you have offered much reassurance and information that has been useful. I don't know if I'd be up to trying the sponge, but I looked into the contraceptive gel, which is basically just a spermicidal lubricant, and I think I'd give that a shot. I haven't really paid attention to whether or not the polyurethane condoms I use have spermicide on them or not, so if they do, I'm not sure if that would really pay to use or not. I know that some water based lubricants have spermicide in them as well, but I am allergic to SOMETHING in KY, and I'm not sure what.... All I know is that I always get this burning sensation and a bit of a rash from it, so I switched to this stuff called "Wet" which has worked really well, but I don't think it contains any spermicide. I know that I am not allergic to spermicide, because I have used other products that contain spermicide and had no reaction... My fear has subsided a bit since I took the pregnancy test yesterday, and I'm beginning to feel PMSy so that's good. I feel like an effing balloon right now, as I usually do before I get my period, and all I want is peanut butter [instead of chocolate, I usually opt for PB] However, I was talking to my roomie yesterday and telling her about how it's difficult for me to be comfortable with sex right now and she goes "I know, my boyfriend and I haven't done anything lately because now you made ME scared!" LOL. No wonder there is so much tension in our apartment. hahaha
No problem at all. KY messes with me too. I get that burning kinda thing going. In any case, I'm glad you feel you're getting over your anxiety. Hopefully you'll be able to get back to your normal self and feel more calm about the whole situation. Good luck .
You are scared about becoming pregnant again because of your previous experience. That's normal. You are being responsible...using condoms and b/c pills. (I wouldn't bother with the pull-out) Give it some time...
i spoke with my counselor about it. she thinks that it's ok for now, however she is a little concerned about my obsessive compulsive patterns. she suggested that after time to stop doing the pull out thing as well. I have been researching all types of different birth control, and she said it's becoming more of an obsession than a necessity.
someone may have recommended this already, but a femidom may also be helpful. It is understandable that you want to be protected because you've already had more than just a scare. However, you shouldn't let it control your life. You're obviously a smart girl, taking precautions etc etc