I Got A Troubled Mind(& help)

I love my boyfriend so very very very much..But something is bothering me,
I don't really want to tell him..I'm so shy about it.
Well, he's 29,and has had 6 girlfriends in his life..But ok,the amount of girlfriends he had I dont like..That's a lot to me.
But what can I do? It's over with now..I understand that,but it just is there
in my head,troublin' me..
Another thing is,he is a photographer and some of his ex-women were models.
Which , I don't like this because I feel like I'm always competing with them,even though they are outta the picture.
I'm not a big girl ok..
.I go for long walks twice a day,and one very long bike ride every day.weight train every other day..I'm healthy,but I'm not a model.
I also weigh a little more than my boyfriend..He's a small guy, athletic,
but I just weigh more than him,probably from muscle..
This upsets me,cause I'm not a model, and never will be.
I have the mind-set like he only likes models,the perfectness of them,
and that he'd be better off with some stuck-up, anerexic model.
I know I'm very attractive,but because the fact that he's been with models
before,just makes me always wanna be better than them.
I honestly feel like I'm competing with something that's long gone..It's
just naturally happening to me.

Despite what he says,I'm physically such a beautiful girl,and all that bullshit.
And this makes me feel really bad , that I have this mind-set..


Is there something I can do about this?Any help/suggestions/similar stories
are greatly appreciated .Thank You.

 

29 with six ex girlfriends?

Sweetie, that's nothing, really...average that out...he probably started dating at sixteen, that would mean, he's been dating for thirteen years. That's a little over one girlfriend every two years ...

That's nothing, sweetie.

My boyfriend is also a photographer and he has used his ex-girlfriends in past photo shoots. You know what? Big deal. They are ex's for reasons. He's not with them, so there is no use to compare them to me or to anyone else.

I REALLY do NOT think that he would compare them to you, of course, I don't know him, so maybe he does...but most guys aren't like that. If he wanted to be with a model...then he'd be with one, but he's not...he's with YOU. That's what you have to be confident about. Guys can smell insecurity and they don't think THAT'S attractive. Being happy with yourself is a major turn on for men. It sounds like you have low self-esteem and it has nothing to do with him dating models in the past at all, but with your own insecure nature. It's something that you need to deal with in order to have a healthy relationship. Take some time for yourself. Do things that you enjoy and that make you feel good about yourself. Maybe even talk to a counselor...That's the only way you're going to be able to get over feeling the way you do.

All in all, this has nothing to do with him dating models in the past. It has to do with you and your low self-esteem. How old are you?

 

Exactly.

 

Who cares how many he has been with or what they were ?
He is with you now so why would that even matter?
I work with Naked Women all day doing Photo Shoots-i'm taking their photo's not having sex with them.
Some are even hotter then my girl friend.
She also has male friends who are much better looking then me too.
But she's with me and not with them-she's not in love with me only for how I look or even how much money I have.
Your main problem is what you said about "COMPETING"
In any relationship we can Compete-Cooperate or Collaborate. The ones that work out the best are the ones where we Collaborate. It sounds like you are pretty well stuck in the physical world of life.

 

So True!

 

He rejected those six. He is with you. Don't worry about them, worry about the (3billion-6) women that are still on his "don't know" list.

 

The way I see it, he's with you, not them. They are his exes for a reason, and you're with him for a reason, too, because he loves you, andnot them. I agree with Dancer Annie here. This spells insecure to me and is more about your self esteam issues than how many exes he's had. 6 isn't that many. Honestly, I suggest going out and doing things you enjoy, and taking some time to pamper yourself, hang out with your girlfriends, read a good book, whatever you're into.

Here's hoping that helps.

Good luck

 

My boyfriend has been bf/gf with over half of this county. 6 isn't a lot....
They are his exes....why worry?
If he didn't want you, he wouldn't be with you.
Model or not....you're his and he's yours. Emotionally speaking. Stop worrying about the past. The past is past, the future is now.