Hi Old Crone, I was wondering if you can tell me anything about the near future as far as careers or relationships. I have been searching for a different job lately because I am uncertain if I want stay where I am now. I dont know what I should do. In away I want to find something else thats full-time and I dont really seem to care where I work as long as its a full-time job for now because I need it.I work part-time right now and there is other opportunities to grow within the company but I dont know if there is anything for me there. I just dont see myself doing anything else there and besides that they arent really hiring for anything I could do. I need some direction on what I should do or maybe what I may like doing because everything is unclear for me right now. Its like everything came to a stop for me and I dont see myself going anywhere. I have one more question too. There is this guy that a friend of mine was trying to set me up with..Its been like months now and I find myself thinking about him because I hear about him all the time. We met once and he tried calling me a few days ago but I wasnt home..I guess he thinks about me too but certain things have gotten in the way that have prevented us from meeting and talking again? I was wondering whats this all about? Is this going to turn into anything? Thanks old crone for the reading...I just feel like everything has come to a complete stop and I cannot see any further..You know that saying when one door closes another opens..I feel like all the doors shut on me and I am trapped in the middle with nowhere to go..I hope things get better..Everybody says it will but when?
The reason here is two pointed. In this place focus seems crazy, or non existent. First is in your past life you died at this age and your body hold the energy imprint of all things ceasing to exist. The second is learning to face your own power of creation by staring another life while yet living. Hi Peachkiss24 At this point you are on your own so to speak. This means that you are your own god self of choices. To embrace this you have to learn to start your own fire. Back when I was a child we would go out in the woods with nothing but the clothes we had on. We learned to be resourceful. We learned to face ourselves and the choices we made. I never got the hang of creating my own fire from nothing so always hid a couple of matches some where in the clothing I had on. My brother never got the hang of eating anything that was not served on a plate, or cooked. My sister used to rock back, and forth before ever getting to the woods, and would cry. Each reaction to the same moment. In your case this point in your life is like that woods. The difference is you are living one choice, and seeing through your bodies imprint that you are not living at all. This sets up stagnate waters, and a stand still effect. The only way to get around, and or through this is to create a new world for you. Start by doing a image journal. I often speak of writing a journal. But for you create your journal much like a tapestry. With pictures. Find your hope. Find what touches your heart, if nothing does then make over time something that does. All you have at this moment is your intent. The hardest thing is to begin. Treat yourself as your own protege. The canvas is yours to create. So be creative, and embrace many places within yourself you have yet to explore. For me walking meditations and hikes in the woods are my centering. My muse has a sense of humor. The feelings catch up. When you know you are dead, you just need to find a way to live unto your own center, and being. When you are alive you often find ways to die to the ego making the ego an ally in the transitions of moving beyond yourself. So Take the message from your job that you are at the end of your rope. Smile, and know your power to swing is yours when you seek not to hold on. There is no security and all you have is this moment to trust yourself. All you have promised alive, or dead is CHANGE / CHOICE. The two "C's" See I told you so the saying goes when one door opens the other was ajar, and the other one seemed closed. We create our doors. Did I mention the forth door. The one that is the illusion that we know what we are doing sometimes. That’s when our nose gets smashed against the window, and we can not see for the attachments we are so close to. Create a passion within you. Find your own way to create your fire, or interest. You are only limited by your choices. Become creative, and as I once told my daughter the world is your own fruitcake. You choose what you take unto your path by the lessons you set up for yourself. You choose the taste by the fruitcake you buy, or bite into. To this day my girls can do anything they set their minds, and hearts too. As my daughter said, "The hard part mom is knowing I can trust me to get through." Her sister replied, "You can not trust yourself for the end of the journey just the steps you have the courage to take one at a time." This time is about you, and what you are made of. This time is about finding yourself in a world you become one with. YOU ARE YOUR OWN HOPE AND SALVATION. You are your god self looking for a way to understand rebirth. Timing is everything, and timing is non existent as well. All you have is now to begin. The key for you is understanding you are your own hope in this matter of living, and dying. You are your everything. This is where truth, and love begin. To avoid this place of becoming yourself by clouding this time with a serious relationship will only put the inevitable at bay, and some day you will face this place again looking from another door. So use this time as a gift not a burden. See this time as your power center needing to be re fired, and understood. See this time as a place to create your passion, and honoring of all life, and journeys. The feelings will catch up. This is about learning to swim in the mud. Keep going and eventually you will find rivers from which to choose a path that calls to you.
