Salvia + Mush Induces Permanant Mindfuck. :(

Alright, about 2 weeks ago, I purchased 1 gram of Salvia 20x, and was going to try it again, as it had been over a year, and reading through these forums had given me the impression that I would like to experience Salvia again, now that I had a better understanding of it.

Anyways, we sat in my friends car, I took my hoot, held in for a good 30-40 seconds, exhaled. I started to feel something, but quickly tried to take another hoot and finish the rest of the fully packed bong bowl. As I put my mouth back to the bong and went to inhale, I was completely lost. I have no idea what happened, everything is a completely insane blur at this point, though my friend informed me that I was drooling, my eyes had rolled back in my head, and i looked like i was trying desperately to move, but couldn't.

Anyways, the next thing I remember after taking this hoot, is that I was somehow outside of the car and my friend was screaming at me, so I (feeling reminiscent of prior bad trips on salvia, and absolutely enraged for some reason) opened the passenger door of the car, and screamed at them to "get the fuck out", and I thhen kicked him pretty hard.

He got out of the car and pushed me (I was absolutely infuriated with this, as I had this feeling of absolute confusion and rage, and they were screaming at me and arguing with me, and I felt as though they just didnt understand) so at this point, I cracked him in the stomach, he dropped to the ground, we yelled at eachother, and eventually i came down and everything was cool.


Anyways, that's only the precursor to the trip.

Anyways, the very next day after doing this Salvia, I ate a quarter of some of the best mushrooms I've ever gotten ahold of. Anyways, once bedtime came around, I was nowhere near ready to sleep, so what did I do? Laid, eyes closed watching some of the most insane visuals of my life. Then my mind turned to my Salvia trip, and as I thought about it more and more, I did something absolutely amazing. I was able to reenact the entire trip, as if I were in it, but in slow motion, so I was able to make sense of what was happening. This is what it was (I'll tell you now though, I don't remember some of the most important details of the trip, because as soon as I would come out of the trip, it would slip away like a dream does as soo as you wake up)
Anyways, here it is:

I saw a visual of this strange shape looking like a rounded-off mountain, but it was actually a meter, and as the meter rose, it was striped black and white on the inside.
Anyway, with the meter, a question was posed. (I can't remember the exact question, but it was something regarding the nature of the universe, or the secret to life, one of those kind of things).
Anyways, my mind was trying to answer this question, by repeatedly asking myself questions to get closer to the answer, and as I got closer and closer to the answer, the meter would respond by moving further towards the top. As I grew closer to figuring out the answer, I realized what it was, though I would always stop myself and snap out of it, as I realized the answer was some terribly ironic thing, that seemed so obvious, but upon your answering of the question, it became apparent that something absolutely terrible would happen.
Now, I dont remember the question, the answer, the terrible thing, due to the dreamlike clause, but whenever I reenacted the trip on mush I would figure it out and stop it agian.



Now, how is this a permanant mindfuck, you might ask? Here it is.
You see, this meter I spoke of, felt like it was something lodged in the very center of my body, throughout my body from head to toe, and as the meter went up, getting closer to the answer, I would feel an intense "BANG" in my head with every question posed to myself, and as the meter went up, it felt like i was being ripped apart from within, and if the meter would've completely reached the top, I was sure I would die.

The problem is, since figuring out my salvia trip, everytime I've done ecstacy, or mushrooms, or even on occasion when I've been unbelievably high, I will be walking or sitting or something, and if I ask my self ANY question inside my head regarding "where'd Joey go?" or whatever, id feel that BANG and the tearing pain within.

then from there, it repeats randomly throughout the night (everytime), and it really is a bad trip and it hurts and it scares the shit out of me.

It only happens when im on these kinda drugs, but it now happens EVERYTIME.

 

Ya dude I had to stop doing mushrooms because I kept getting bad trips over and over, its a natural occurence, as you change so does the trips.