Gone with the wind...

So, I found out today that my friend Wayne died of heart failure...

He just graduated last year and we were supposed to go hunting together this Fall.

I wish people would quit dying on me.. My neighbor died at the beginning of last school year and I didn't believe it for a week, until his memorial. I didn't want to... then his brother showed me the clothes he was wearing that they cut off when they flew him on the nightingale...

This fucking sucks.... I need to go for a ride or something. I missed his funeral and everything. I feel like hitting myself in the head.

 

im sorry.

was he sick before?

 

Im sooo sorry

 

He's always had a heart problem. He went to my high school. We were supposed to go hunting the Fall after I got my license, which is this fall...

 

i always have problem with accepting someone's death.

 

After my uncle died and it was the day after his funeral, I had a dream that he went to Mexico or somewhere and the body was just a mask on this mannican thing and the funeral home was in on it...

Ugh... I'm going to go to the beach or something. I don't know... Call my crazy, but I go to the beach alot and talk to my grandmother. We scattered her ashes there.

 

I know how you feel man and im so sorry about your friend
i hope you are okay

 

i dont think it's crazy, i would do the same.

*hugs*

 

i'm sorry george

 

George I'm so sorry

I really mean it.

 

He just turned 21 and graduated... didn't have much of a life. I saw him have a heart attack.

I just wish I knew what the fuck was like to not have to bare losing all the people I care about or people I grew up with. Everytime it happens, I go through moments where I have to hang on for dear life to see that there's any hope, and right now, there isn't a whole lot left, so who cares anymore... because it's going to take alot for me to.....

 

and you say you have faith...

 

There's a fine line between faith and hope. You can hope without having faith.

 

sorry man...it definitly sucks

 

Well it's starting to sound like youre losing both if you really want to know...

 

Well, considering he was a son, I take it as a brother passing... and this just one more piece of mold-infested straw in my bale of life.

 

It's times like these that make me just want to become a missionary or join the peace corps and never have to come back or think about anything in this life.



It's just another day of money for love in Babylon; and it can be a whorehouse of a place.

 

I hope your grammy can help you through this, George.
Sorry to hear about your friend.

 

Indeed.

And i'm really sorry to hear about your friend ... I know what it's like. My best friend passed away 3 years ago next week ... Just hours before she passed away she was at my house.

I still have trouble understanding that shes gone.

But ya know what ... would you really wanna live forever? And not know what comes next? I feel sorta guilty for wishing she was still here ... cause i'm sure shes having alot of fun right now.

 

Why do you hunt? What joy do you get out of killing animals. This pisses me off. Sorry, I mean I know your going through a hard time and all but come on man, seriously, you shoot poor little innocent animals just for the hell of it?

People are so much better off in heaven anyway. I mean look at this world, look what it has come to, look at what is ahead. Your friend is probably having the time of his after life right now.

Back to animals, leave nature alone.