life is kind of in the shitter right now, my grandma died yesterday, and now im sitting in my room getting high and listenening to the smashing pumpkins... what makes this worse is that she lived 2 houses down from me my whole life (along with 6 housese with cousins also on my stret) but on tyop of that my big sister never got to meet her (long story) and now she cant find the pictures of her our dad gave her...i mean this woman raised 3 generations of thisd family (my dad and aunt, my aunts daughter and then my cousins son...)and i spent all of yesterday crying and looking for weed...and now my aunt is in the kitchen crying...and the whole of my dads family has decended on our street...its really strange feeling... sorry for the downer but i just feel like hjell and needed to get it out... smoke one for my grandma guys....thanks (and dont give me hell for saying that..my grandpa still smokes...)
damn man, that sucks, i hope life gets better for ya. i liek to believe in karma, and if you go through this something good will come in the future, so keep your head up ^^, take care
I dont think ill be able to live when my grandmother dies. You guys dont understand, she litteraly spent her whole life working and become a self-made millionaire in real-estate(when houses were mad cheap) just to raise 3 druggies(one being my mom), she couldnt do anything about it because she always worked and was never home, now ALL she wants is her grandkids to do the right things and walk the narrow path. She regrets spending her years working and rather would of been home with her kids to supervise them, and ill say we are CLOSE because through all the hard times with my fucking loser parents she was ALWAYS there, i remember my grandparents telling me about how they use to come rescue me when i was left alone in a high-chair(or hight-chair..u know wat i mean) with unchanged diapers and almost starving to death, because all my selfish ass parents would do is stay out all night and shoot up heroin...i mean my grandparents pay for EVERYTHING of mine, if i didnt have them, i dont know where the fuck i would be. Who pays for the cable,school clothes, internet, house, food etc? They do. Shes litterally the reason im going to be somebody and not a fucking loser like my parents. I didnt mean to hijack this thread, im just sharing a bit of love now that were on the subject of grandparents. Just as hgh238 said, keep your head, times WILL get better.
it's what happens, honestly, to grandparents in a very plain, matter-of-fact statement, they die, it's life we all know this but death isn't what matters in life, it's life, we should all know this it's important to look at her life, you say she raised many members of your family, well fuckin' a, she was a determined woman. apparently she was also full of love. keep that tradition going, and remember her for her greatness.
i know the feeling, my grandfather who i had practically lived with for years died a few months ago. i traveled 5000 km to be on the funeral. it was fucked up, but i'm glad i did it. everything will get much better and you'll feel at peace once the ceremonies are over. but i'm sure you're having a tough time now, my condolences..
I'm sorry to hear about your loss. I plan on getting an OZ tonight and I will be sure to make a dedication or two..........or eleven. Keep your head up. I am sure she's in heaven right now smoking a spliff with Bob.
you guys are so sweet...i feel a little bit better today..its slowly sinking in...im about to smoke and then write some ideas for what me and my cousin will say.... i lov eyou guys :*-)
Well, I didn't get my OZ last night, so no dedication, as of yet. But I am heading over to my cousin's apartment in a couple of hours, so I am smoking in dedication to your Grandma. I did drink a few 211's last night though, and I made it a point to dedicate a couple of those; not weed, but it's better than nothing, I guess.
I dedicated two bongloads for her tonight and if I remember, I will dedicate my next bowl to her, as well. I only wish it could make you feel a little better. Hell, I'll smoke one for you too.
thanks..i got fucked up last night..after 4 joints and like 8 lines my mom called and said there was alot of family ovver and i need to be home...so i was paranoid and feeling like shit...went to sleep at like 3am...still dont feel right and the wake is tongiht...i really just wish i could leave this place...like i wih i could pack up the car and drive to boone and just stay for a month or two...i just want to escape so obad right now
yeh i know how ur feeling, my great- grandmother just died yesterday. im goin to the viewing now. just keep strong and think of what she would want in you and be happy thats all a grandma wants
