i used to regularly smoke and i quite and its been like 5 weeks and im depressed all the time i always feel like im not a good person and i always think about my childhood and i get sad because i feel like thats when i was "pure" thats a terrible way to describe it but i feel like i have no innocence now, i feel like ive already screwed with my life and no accomplishment or goal reached could ever make me truely happy, i feel like i wasted freshman year getting high i get depresssed thinking about all the good times getting high and how there no more, i get deprssed thinking about when i was drug free, every memory of the past makes me depressed, when i hear any song that was incorporated before i ever smoked it hurts me anything that reminds me of when i was young makes me depressed, its hard to see light anymore you dig? and its wweird cuz i used to think pot didn't do anyhing to me emotionaly, but either im just depressed person or its marijuna. sorry for this stupid rant i just want to know if anyone feels like i have, sorry for darkening happier atmosphere portrayed by this forum
dude, i know what you mean. at least 3 times a week ill lie in my bed wanting to die over how horrible a person i am. i think about when i was a kid and my parents loved me no matter what to now when i smoke pot everyday and get poor grades. i try and shake the thoughts out of my head cause i knowim not planning on changing myself and its best not to dwell on the meaningless bad stuff but sometimes they really get to you. i dont wanna give you bad advice but maybe you should start toking again, it can be done in moderation ya know...
my mom caught me too and thats why i feel guilty sometimes but i just have to remind myself my moms a closeminded conformist but i still love her cause she gave birth to me, man.
yeah i understand that to its just out of all things in this life my mom wanted me to stay away from pot because all of her friends were heavy tokers and most of them didn't ever do anythign with themselves or wound up in the penetentary and even if pot isn't that bad the way it hurt my mom still hurts me
I know what you mean, but I have no sympathy. If yer gonna use pot like a narcotic that's your choice. I used be like that when smoked everyday multiple times a day. It was really pathetic, especially the way I sympathised about myself. Then I just decided that I had to stop being a fucking pussy and get on with my life. I stoped using pot and then stared again, but in a different manner( as a tool, not a drug) and now everything is ok. Seriously though, you really got pull your thumb out of your ass and get out there and change things if it's really that bad. It could just be the THC still making its way out of your system and this commonly causes people to get depressed(It really did for me). Try exercising a bit, but most importently, dont sit at home and wallow in your own guilt, that's the worst thing you can do. Go out and do things with yer freinds and what not. You can easily cure this "illness" that you have, but it's completely your own choice.
sorry thats funny, its like this whole deep statement(at the end) and then, man sorry i thot it was funny
i have found im a much happer person since ive become a stoner. i look back and think 'fuck i was missing out'. I look back at my good grades and think 'waht a wasted use of my mind and time'. i feel sad when i get weed cravings, caus i see it as sorta weakness, but if i have a ncie supply of weed, im a happy chappy.
First off, you're not wasting our time and it's not a stupid rant. It's the way you feel and you needed to get it out, hopefully we can help you out, man! I understand where you're coming from, bro. I've been smoking since I was 13 and have been caught on more than one occasion. I remember getting so depressed and feeling so guilty when I was caught. I would go to bed and wish that I could turn back time. I was sad because I felt I was no longer my mother and father's "innocent little boy". I later realized that I was, in fact, not their innocent little boy anymore, but a man, capable of making my own decisions. I then realized that I was depressed because I was holding myself to the standards of others and not a standard set by the only person who mattered on this planet, myself. I came to realize at some point in this episode of my life that I was not cut out for the rat race, get up at 6:00 A.M. and bust your ass all day life-style. I don't want to wake up one day at age 45, holding partnership at a firm, with an ex-wife who has taken 3/4 of my belongings, both of my kids, my will to be and despises me completely and realize that I have wasted my one life doing something that makes me miserable, behind a desk 10-12 hours a day because it was a good financial decision. I have found that most people who get depressed on Marijuana (myself, at one point, included) get depressed not because they're unhappy with life but because they have held themselves to a pre-set standard that actually has nothing to do with them or their life. You don't have to be anything you don't want to be, and you don't have to "live up to" anything. I'll give you a tip that has helped me in life. If you respect everyone and everything on this planet, if you have the utmost care and treat people with the utmost courtesy everyday and above all do what you want to do with your life and do that thing or things to the best of your ability you will be just fine in life. I am now in college and am a music education and performance major. I am living on my own, which makes it easier because I only now have to answer to myself. I make a fair living teaching guitar at a local shop at the moment and plan to be a music teacher and performer for the rest of my life. Why? Because that's what Jon wanted for himself in life. Not because it is a career that looks good in the eyes of my parents or society and not because it was a sound financial decision. After all, life is not a financial decision, and you have not the time on this earth to make it one. Having said that I'll give you a free suggestion that's worth what you paid for it and you can take it or not as you see fit. My advice would be, the next time you smoke do it alone and when you smoke don't think about what Mr. or Mrs. Teacher at school feels about you, don't think about what your parents think of you or your goals (after all, they simply bore you and raised you , they have no right to tell you who to be or how to feel), don't think about whether or not what you do in life is a sound financial or socially conscious decision and just lay back and think what you want to do with yourself and your precious time on this planet without regard to any of the aforementioned factors. If you're still depressed on the pot (which you won't be) then give it up because it's simply not for you. By the way, to Marquee, you might be happier on Marijuana if you didn't read Neitzsche or any other existential philosopher. lol! Their ideas are trite and meaningless, you don't need to be reading that drivel. Anyway, I hope this helped you out man, and if not, atleast I tried, right? heh Much love!
By the way, if you're getting bad grades in school or are lazy it's because of your own lack of responsibilty, not the Marijuana's effects on you. Blaming Marijuana is a cop-out I've heard several times. I did poorly in Freshman year too, but for the rest of those 3 years and my Freshman year of college I maintained a 3.5 G.P.A. . My house is impeccably clean, my things ordered in an easy-to-find fashion and my laundry is always done on Fridays. I'm not coming down on you, I'm just saying that you need to take those responsibilities that you're disregarding upon yourself. Your arms and legs are not phsyical atrophy.
I understand what you are saying about being depressed but you shouldn't be. Think of it as a break from reality for a while. You don't need to do it but sometimes you just want to relax, just like drinking. I'm sure that myself as a kid would kick my ass now for what I do but keep in mind at that age we were all ignorant to the real issues of the world. The most important things to us at that age were birthdays and Christmas. Now there are more important things like war and terrorists. Lives a precious and short. You can go at anytime. Shouldn't you enjoy your life while you can no matter what. If smoking a little herb helps you do that so be it. If you are depressed then you are not enjoying your life. Maybe you need to smoke some herb and relax, maybe you don't. But if you are not happy, try something else. Ladies and gentlemen I have a dream, that a man can walk down the street, smoking a joint without catching heat from the man. That a man can go to the store buy some herb whether in a pouch or prerolled. That some day our government will realize that the world shouldn't be powered by greed and that we should all come together for we are all of the same earth. Can I get an amen. Do what you can my people to start a revolution. Make it known that this plant means no harm and is hear to be shared by all. (Sorry, it started sounding like a speech so I had to finish it like one.)
I use to get like that when I smoked alot, I rarely smoke anymore really. Its not as fun as it use to be. When im older maybe, or when I can grow so then i dont have to be ashamed of spending the money they give me on pot.
thanks music man and marquee, i still get good grades i get all as and bs but idk you helped me alot thoguh thanks and thanks to everyone else to
I feel ya man. The deal is you look back at your memories and you remember all the good times. I was the same way for a long time and am just growing out of that now. The only thing you can do is go out and make more good times. Then tomorrow when you look back at today, you can smile. Don't live in the past, man. It'll kill ya. believe me. I was really bad with always living in the past. You have to start living for today and at the same time prepare for your future so when you do look at your past you can be happy. And don't feel guilty about pot. The way I got over that, is realizing that pot is not messing up my life the way people say it will. I dropped out of college cause it wasn't for me. And my parents were all down on me about a lot of aspects in my life. But now i'm making twice as much as i would coming out of college and i smoke everyday. Pot will only bring you down if you start looking at it that way. I look at it as something that opens my mind, helps me be creative while making/writing music, and something that relaxes me so i can have a good time. Pot can be a very useful thing in your life, but once you start feeling guilty about something it doesn't help you at all.
If there's anything that weed has taught me, it's to live in the now and to stop worrying about the past.
I think those anti-drug adds you saw when you where little might also be responsible for this. At parties i always get complety drunk and none of my friends did. Then all i would hear from them is 'I must have some sort of emotional problem or something wrong in my life'. Worse i also used to believe this myself. Then i realized fuck that getting drunk is fun and that is why i do it and i dont have any problems. You might be thinking in the back of your head that fun memories when you were high are not as meaningful or real than fun memories when you were sober. But i dont see why. There is no logicial reason for this. Yet alot of people believe this because we have all seen those anti-drug adds. A good example of this is one of my friends is an athiest but refuses to smoke or drink. I question him on this a while ago and he couldnt give me a reason why he didnt drink but he still refused to drink. Those anti-drug adds are much more powerful than we all think since they can do thinks like making u feeling guilty or a loser for getting high. So maybe thats why? just a possibility
Alot of depression (and paranoia) that pot smokers get is mainly due to the illegality of pot. You feel bad about ti all becuase society has you conditioned into thinking it's wrong. There's nothing wrong with smoking spliffs. You do get a bit down sometimes when you go off the Pot for awhile, but it's doing you good, give you a chance to get your head together.
I know exactly what you mean. I'm hte same way and I think it happens with alot of people. My best friend is like that too.
yer, as i said, the only reason you should feel bad is if you are angry at yourself for becoming a burnout (if you do, but i dont think so if your gettin good marks). bein a burnout IS something to feel ashamed of simply because life is worth more than that. well you know, if poeple didnt care so much about war and terrorists, tehre wouldnt be wars or terrorism. you yourself, caring about wars and terrorism, are showing that you are still being conditioned by society (or at least, the govt, as is with weed). im not attacking you, just makin a relevant observation. anywya not going in that direction, i think poeple are stupid if they frown at recreational drug use. theres jsut something really idiotic. no respect for them, and no personal status. Now, i have a friend who doesnt agree with drug use, but hes one of the smartest poeple i know, and also never ever imposes his beleifs on other poeple. People like him are an exception. People who actualyl think all peope who take drugs and alchohol are doing it caus theyve got problems (sadly its true for many marijuana smokers though) and are a lesser person jsut put themselves down in the eyes of real smart people. so why drop yourself to that level?
