I`m so confused lately. I have that feeling that i have absolutely no idea about anything at all. Its like im locked inside a small box and i cant get out of it. I dont even understand my own feelings. I have no idea what the fuck am i,why i feel that way,where i am and why i am here! I look at my hand and i dont see me,i look at the mirror and i dont see me! I see a body,a face....but im starting to realize thats not me! Im something totally different and my body is the box,that im locked in. Im not even my memories...im something totally different,but i dont know what! Its not like im in some kind of depression,not at all.....but i feel strange sometimes.I suppose everybody do.
I feel the same way Elena ... We're at that age where we try to 'find' ourselves. Just remember what you believe in, what you put your faith in, what matters most to you ... That's who you are. You knew it all along. Don't go to far/Stay who you are.
Should you go lookin' for a testament to youth in verse, variations on the age old curse, you blame the stations when they play you like a fool and like a fool you get played with. Baby, think twice, maybe it's not all, maybe it's not alright. Finally a decent picture of the exodus, I don't know much but other singers know less, and can we control ourselves for once? They're telling the children to rock for their choices. The bells ring no, no, no, no, no, no, no, the new pornographers. yeah.
i feel the same way, and yeah i think alot of people know the feeling for me, i feel like everyone sees me a different way than i really am...and so in trying to be what everyone want me to be, i lose myself...i'm only now starting to actually be more myself, and find out who i really am... i'm always here for you if you ever need anything or you wanna talk...love you
awesome. I had that last year, although I was in depression, and a few psychosis .although... once this phase is over, its kind of like an awakening... Here's what I remember feeling during those moments: Complete disconection with "reality"... the "reality" of our everyday lives... just, practically living. Which brought me confusion... Looking at people but not really thinking they're really there... thinking nothing is really there, even I...... that if I'd die, Id still be at the same place, cause really nothing is "really" there... A bit of hiding in my shell, and not understanding the personality of people around me... I remember I prefered being alone during those times, and the only moments i could relate with others, and have "fun" was at parties when high or drunk or whatever. When Id walk around, or move physically, I would always wonder why Im doing this particular thing... what makes my brain make me do what I do... etc... Why. why .. why.... whyy.... whyyy.... whyyyy... this was my "why" phase. But it passes, next phase is pretty much how to live with thy "why", and to adapt to it. The universe is incomprehisible and that's where I find my love and happiness. how boring would it all be if we all knew everything? Knowledge brings nothing... If we did know everything, we wouldn't "be"... we wouldnt "do"... the only reason why we live and do things is because there's something missing in our comprehension of what surrounds us... Ignorance brings life... were all lost here... like a little particule of sand on the beach. We live in the gap between ignorance and certainty... this gap is life... this gap is what we do everyday... were fulfilling our reality. if we lived in certainty, we wouldnt have anything to do...
no... I wasnt very much depressed and in the state of " i want to know everyting " when i did datura. It was later. But I did do a lot of shrooms before and during my depression.
I dont think you both,really understood me very correctly. The thing is that i want to get it into me,to understand it and to accept it. Im just 2 curious,not to think about it or even ..."experiment" with it lol. Ignorance is a good thing for some things,but what is inside of me-i dont want to be ignorance. I like what Phil said,it made me think and maybe he is right. I told you that i dont feel it,like something bad that it makes me feel depressed. Its something that i need to go through and learn something from!
actually its a very common thing that happens often during those years, 15-17 years of age... Ive talked to lots of people who started feeling weird by the beginning of grade 12... not knowing who they really were, not knowing why they're doing what they're doing... its fuckin normal of course to ask yourself those questions... And I have to stick with my belief, it's somewhat kind of like a phase, a phase of questionning. And it happens to many teenagers, some just don't like to talk about it, or afraid that they're not normal, and some will become psychopats from holding all of this inside of themselves.... and those are the years mental disorders start to come out usually, like schizoprenia and bipolar disorders. If you live on this earth for 80 years without asking yourself questions about your existance, well then you'll have lived in total ignorance.
lol the only way out is not ignorance... Im saying ignorance brings life, the reason we live is become of this great mystery of "why are we here"... science, religion, philosophy... all that we do, or why we go to school is surrounded by this great question... the question of our existance. If we were to be absolute beings, with total knowledge, I am afraid to believe that there would be no life whatsoever...
est-ce une correction sur "c'est la vie"?... Eh bien, bonne correction. J'ai bel et bien fait un erreur dans ma phrase
