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Maybe I should just take some.

I hate being alive anyway.

I'm such a depressed person, I just don't show it.

 

I had the best day EVER!

Sorry. I had to share :& .

 

I'm the same way. Infact I did try to kill myself before by taking pills and mixing alcohol, unfortunatly you never know if your going to die like you wanted or wake up more retarded.

 

josh i swear i'll kill ya if you kill yourself



burbot, good days are always nice to share

hey campfirejam, whats your name?

 

I tried to kill myself alot.

I hate life.

I hate FELLING.

I hate breathing ...

I hate loving

I hate hating

I hate feeling needed

I hate feeing responcible

I hate feeling obligated

I hate every emotion that flows through these veins!!!

DAMMIT!!!

 

Call me Burby

And yeah. Like. Oh Em Gee. Goodness gracious what a day

josh. please don't be like that. You are not my greatest online friend, but that is really sad. You are awesome....

 

... Thanks Trevor, that means alot more than you know.

 

do you wanna talk?
i can call you, i'm a good listener

 

Naaaaaa.

I'm fine.

I deal with this shit everyday.

It just sucks ... I wanna be as happy go lucky as I seem to most people.

My life sucks, more than you can imagine.

Every aspect is negative.

 

Wow, that was deep and beautiful...... . I'm sorry you feel that way Josh, if I was there, I'd give you a big hug. It's the smirnoff though.

And indian-summer, my name is Danielle.

 

i have dealt with alot of negative things too, and i know alot of people that have been through alot, i try my best to be positive and help others because i have been blessed with alot more than most, so i will always be here if you need anything
i have tried to kill myself on more than one occasion and so has my brother, that was hard finding out my little brother tried to hang himself, it's hard to deal with but it does get better
i can imagine alot, so just bring it on
~love

 

Josh, we've all been there. It's just a part of the circle that is life. The ebbs and flows. But you knew that already!

 

No problem brother.

I can be praying for you?

 

than your name is ~
cause my middle name is danielle, and they've concluded that the ~ stands for danielle
i shall from now on call you ~

 

Man, I've been through so many rough patches in my life...

losing my grandmother in a car crash when I was little, my family being ripped apart at the seams, moving from spot to spot all the time, my mother scrimping and working herself to the bone to take care of me, growing up...and now, I do the same for her. Falling madly in love with a girl I believed I would spend all my life with..only to discover I could never compete with her abusive violent father.

It sucks, but you know, each of those little things added together makes me the man I am today. And I am better for it. I am starting to learn about true happiness for the first time in my life. It's all there for a reason.

 

Snoopy - Thank you so much, I know exactly what your talking about.

Trevor - I would appreciate that very much so. I've been having alot of trouble dealing with 'life' latley ... seems like everything wants me to fail.

 

Let me use the Bible as an example. The Book of Job specifically. God left job and he was struck with many hardships. Job even for a while started to dislike God and wonder what he did wrong. god never stopped loving Job though, and he did return his open love to him again. Rememerb that. Once I read that book it really opened my eyes to the nature of God.

I will be praying though. Good luck with this.

 

good luck

 

Man, Burb, Job was my biggest influence in the bible. He had such an undying faith in life and spirit. No matter what was thrown his way, he took it like a man, and never flinched. Even if you take it out of a religious context, he was still such an inspiration.

 

You all make my heart shine

You have no idea how much each and every one of you means to me .