I think too much. I see shit that isnt ther eand notice things that never matter. If i didnt have to spend so much goddamn time inside my own head id attempt to determine what is real and what isnt but i dont feel like laying the burden on some unsuspecting soul. I get dizzy talking to the voices in my head and fielding every question, every pointed finger that is quite possibly fake and imagined, but i have no idea and never will. That is what drives me insane. Lizard, you know id leave if i never met you. Its cause of you im still alive. But Layne is taking over again. And when he assumes my position, we make decisions. Michelle is faulty and never learns...so Layne saves her. Delirious...insanity...my disorganized pattern of thought, its cause of all of these i dont know if youre aware just how much i fucking love you. Thats how i live. Wondering if people get it since rarely do i get my speech in order to make sense. Id ask you to be there to tell me whats imagined but thats what the little people converse about the most...they scream and hold time in stand still. Im starting to see things in slow motion which drives me more insane..until im digging a gutter in the ground with my head to hide in, look down and picture me crouched in the corner ive dug, safe for once from people. People scare me. Its because of that, that adds to my lack of communication. Paranoid, catatonic, schizophrenic. I need some help living in parallel universes, communicating with two alter egos of myself, duality of everything. Before...whatever happens. And that's not even when I'm trippin.
No really, I mean I kinda of go through what you go through, only I've never heard voices. But I don't think your paranoid even if you do hear voices. I mean shit at least it's keeping you company. I've kinda always wanted to hear voices just because I'm scared of the presence of it so I'd like to get it over already.
you are probably a lot more well adjusted than your insides tell you. at least from my personal experience, every person i've ever gotten to know is fucked up in some way.
If it is liek that... USE it.. i too. think alot, but of course when i need to talk i talk, when i need to think i think,.. i dont waste my time and life for someshit like cartoons or doign usless shit... i always do somethign. read stuff on interent. exercise. make urself better.... and think as much as you can.. it is the same as exercise more you think the smarter you become....
thanks. i guess i dont know a whole lot of fucked up people, but some. im getting used to it thank fucking god...so yea.
ok, i'm no psychologist but i do no some shit & this sounds like clsassic schitsophrenia to me.. its okfor people to just saty goon ignore it your ok, but honnestly ihear you & you dont sound ok schitsophrenia however is something that can be dealt with, often without medication, however ignoring it isnt a good thing neither is tripping tripping, at all, can make it worse, combos like lsd & extacy can literaly drive u into pure psychosis so can going too long wiythout sleep i suggest you bring it up with a parent or councelo (assumking your young, doesnt say) or see a psychyatrist or psychologist thats not a scry thing to do, & what your dealling with millions of others do to, but you do need treatment not saying inpatient or anythingm but go see someone whos more capable of diagnosing you then i am im just saying what i feel judging from whart u say..& from past experiences with girlfreinds with schitsophrenia u can get life back to normal..well if u ever knew what that meant hearring voices in your head is not good..giving them names & talking to them is a definate sign of a problem good luck & keep us posted onhow treatment is going
sounds to me like you are probably the most normal person in hip forums Have a look around everyones insane - totally bonkers here
