im confused as fuck all the time, i had to look at the computor to find out how old i was. i have dreams, then two weeks later they happen, but usually i dont remember till later, i keep feeling like im going to wake up at age 2 again and go on with life...im starting to really freak out and i dont even know where this would go but im asuming that im wrong puting it here but oh well. also...does anyone have suggestions for clearing my mind so i can feel at peace instead of freaking out and acting out all the time?
thats where i freak out, ill listen to TOOL snd get lost in the music....then i start to wonder whats real and fake, then i just sit like a lump in my thoughts.
I haven't smoked weed in about 6 months and it's still fucking with my head,not as badly as you though. Don't underestimate the power weed has over your mind. If you keep feeling like this you should definetly speak to someone.
I feel uneasy talking about this for some reason, I don't take the subject lightly, so I don't want to make this an advert. But I've got a book that's about to come out that'll tell you the best ways to overcome a lot of the above. I suffered with it badly too for a couple of years. The book's called, ahem 'How to be Good at Being Stoned' - Volume 1: Meditation & Exploration'. It's about all kinds of things, exploring the mind, altered states, and how to get a good high every time, and stave off tolerance. I don't really know what's considered a lot of dope, but I've done pretty large amounts every day for about 15 years and I was just about losing the hit completely. I didn't want to abstain, I just wanted to figure out a way of keep doing it and keep the high fresh. What I found will work for anyone. Anyway, enough of the advert. Take a look at a PR thing for it if you want to know more, it's on sale in a couple of weeks. Best MelT http://www.bookcatcher.com/index2.php?a=2&b=918 Headstuff@aol.com
You should restart smokin pot again... but not too much... it cant be worst than what u live now... secondly the advice in the last post about "how the be high without bein paranoid" seems to be interesting & it will maybe help u... & finally ... stop listenin to Tool ...even if it s not bad music... it s not a real happy music with full of flowers around... find some good time soft psychedelic records or something else quite soft...as a balloon
i lost touch a long time ago, youre not alone! haha out of everything ive lost i miss my mind the most.
It wasn't until boards like this started about 15 years ago that I realised how common weed paranoia is. Don't worry, it IS preventable and curable. MelT
There's some wise people in this thread. I've smoked weed for a good 9 or 10 years now, and I've learnt alot about how to avoid the bad trips. I have to say though, one of the most important lessons you should learn right off the bat is that there is no such thing as a fail-safe method for avoiding bad trips - there's always a slight chance you're going to lose control of your mind. That chance becomes bigger the more stoned you are. The more tricks you learn, the more you reduce the chances, but they never go away completely. Also, one thing I noticed is that I never have a bad trip if I smoke up after being stoned for a while already. If it's going to happen, it'll happen soon after the first session has started. Say I've been stoned for an hour and I smoke another joint and get completely blazed - I won't trip out (not in a negative way, at least). I'm not sure why this is - my guess is that I'm already too stoned to realize I'm getting more stoned. haha!
MELT - Your book looks kinda interesting. I've looked at the site you linked to, but there's no link to a site where I can buy it if I decide to. Before I do, can you tell me what I can expect from it? I don't want to sound rude, but what qualifications do you have for writing something like that? Are you like a meditation teacher or something, and why does that mean you know a lot about weed? SNB
If it fucks with you I guess you should go see a doctor. If not, well you are already living with it.
It's a fair question. I've been involved in meditation for 23 years (I'm a Buddhist), but my background is in psychology and hypnosis, I normally write books of effects for performers of Mentalism. I teach meditation in my spare time. I've been a dope taker for 20 years, initially not recreationally but to explore it using meditation techniques. It was more successful than I'd expected. I was anti-drugs and meditation at the start, but I was quickly won over That's not to say I don't meditate without it though. The kinds of states I talk about in the book are just the same as I would expect in meditation; blisses, non-conceptuality, clarity, glimpses of enlightenment, sudden understandings, etc., some of which tend to be easier to arrive at stoned. The first four chapters are on how to get the best high you can and as often as possible - and how to get it back if you're finding that your high isn't as broad as it once was. There's also a chapter to removing and preventing cannabis paranoia, which I suffered from myself a lot after about 12 years of taking it. Overall it's 20 years worth of things that I've learned that have made being stoned better for me, that I hope will help everyone else too. MelT
All I can say is that I sympathize. I go through that alot and I don't do as many drugs as you would think. Its not the drugs man, its something else entirely. Dont worry about it. Besides who needs reality anyway. Its way overrated. Besides, you're 15! You really dont need reality at all. high school sucks enough as it is.
ive been high all week except friday and today and i feel pretty normal. except i wish i had weed=( im to damn poor!
Welcome to my world. I have lost touch of reality since I lost my job a year and half ago. One doesn't need drugs for this to be achieved. It is reality that becomes bitter and then it pokes you in your eye and destroys all contact with reality. Going through the same thing. sometimes I get so scared I go under my blankets for security. I fantasize all day and smoke Marlboro lights, twenty a day. Know what you are going through. Eventually someone will show you the real world and then you can return to normality. Additional: I have spent so long out of touch with reality that it becomes comfortable.
