Well if one is so paranoid they do not leave there home. Or afraid to go to a job or a new job. Living in a shell not knowing how to excape. And believe me wanting to break out and live. Can't be around big groups if you don't know them, can't communicate. There are know words that come to mind know communication. Just the quiet one, hmm he must be shy. They are not knowing how much he wants to bust and be free. Its a prison worse then bars. Man listening to CSN mellows the spirit and soul. Gives hope and stills the heart. There has to be a way out, a chance to be free and live in harmony with myself and the world around me.
emm... well, i sometimes feel liek that way too. but i guess i might sound liek anything you want it to be, you jsut have to go out there and be yourself and fuck all those people who are lie messed up. if you think too much liek them, then you'll be too much like them...
Well went to the doctor about this crap. He says i have a social anxiety disorder. And gave me SSRI's ( selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors ). I don't think is working that well. It just sucks to be born with this bullshit. Sure i can go out and say i don't give a fuck what people think and just be me. But its a constant battle of stepping out into to fear. And it does not matter how much you step out the fear does not decrease. Its a constant battle and wears you down. Then you are not only fighting that you are fighting depression also. Oh well its my fight and its one i believe i'm going to win.
right on bro.... i fell your emotions. if I could help you I would, other than say I understand and Im here for you bro.
There is a way out. Really, there is. I used to be like that.. And was put on medication. Anyway, the point i'm trying to make us.. damn, forgot.
get the fuck off drugs. dependancy on mashed up elements is stupid. \ get into yoga or get a book on zen or something. read some carlos castenada.
zen? yoga? carlos casteneda! i can definetly relate to this guy, and i would not recommend that stuff as a cure. philosophy is interesting, but in my experience, you gotta go out there and change yourself through real life experience. i have read so many books (yes, carlos casteneda) about all that crap. it satiates me. im enlightened while i read it. then i finish the book and im like, now what the fuck do i do. i feel bad giving this advice, since i dont really follow it myself. cus im a scared little runt like you. get out there and challenge yourself, talk to people, do all those things you think you cant, i dont care how much it hurts and pains you. just fucking do it, or its only gonna get worse good luck
TO THE ORIGINAL POSTER: Hello, I am sailing in the same boat you float in. Im not going to sit here and proclaim myself someone who "knows what your talking about and can connect in every way"...why, cus you'd ride that off faster then the Red Sox losing the pennant race. Im going to tell you straight out I get afraid, scared, weak inside, and worried. I think things that I know aren't true. I think people think things about me. Goddamn if they thought those things then murder on them right?!!! But you know as well as I do they aren't thinking those things... So YAY we get to go out and get buckled up into a bubble of unreal awareness and become tortured thick AND THICKER. ..and thank god we are known as someone, yes at least we make our presence...... QUOTE from Brothersun - "just the quiet one, hmm he must be shy. They are not knowing how much he wants to bust free and be free. It's a prison worse then bars."
