well ive been here on earth about three times as long as you have .....and things have been mostly as you describe them , with a few cool but short interludes ....even when theres an excess of people in your life [as mine is now] ......its few and far between the deeply satisfying sharing of moments with another human .......relations with your mom will probly inprove with time .....mines dead so scratch that prob .....civilization just sucks .....
