Thinking about Gadget, my girlfriend. Also I think about my increasing depression and how life has been so fucking awful to me. I am merely existing on the planet. Not living and not enjoying myself very much. My video says it all: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2HzjakWZpMo additional: reccommend Mansize Kleenex tissues.
Start at the bottom, work your way up, then grab the world by the balls and make a better life. Nobody is stopping you but you.
I agree that you need to take control and get on it and not wallow. Sometimes it's more though. Have you seen a Psychiatrist? It's a lot easier not to wallow when you know why you are wallowing.