I need some emotional support. I haven't talked to my fiance in two weeks, as of today, and I am very depressed. The phones haven't been working where she is at and I feel as close to suicidal as I could ever feel. Not suicidal, but if something were to put me in that state of mind, it would be this. I just miss her so much and I haven't even been able to hear her voice for two weeks. I don't know exactly what any of you can do, but some words of kindness, if nothing else, would be great.
She actually called right after I made this thread. I was so happy. And I am not freakin over nothing. This is the longest we have gone without talking to each other since we met, plus she is in another state, which is just fuckin horrible. Heroin withdrawals probably aren't this bad. Anyway, like I said, she called right after I made this thread, so I feel a little better now.
i was going to say, you are marrying her dude, most married guys would kill for a breakfrom their wives
you shouldnt need to rely on someone else for your happiness. you should be able to be happy on your own.
I'm not being reliant or dependant. I just want to be able to hold the woman I love........too much to ask?
No...I think its wonderful that you have such a bond with your woman...things like what you feel are rare....enjoy it...and best wishes for the two of you !!!!
Yeah even being away from her and missing her so much is better than I felt before I met her. It's nice to just feel something for a change. It still doesn't make me miss her any less; I just appreciate her more because of it.
sorry if i sounded insensitive. i think it's great you have such a bond and emotional intensity - trust me i'd love the guy i'm with to be more intense / emotional! so sorry if i sounded dismissive. but there is "going too far the other way" as well - where you actually RELY on having a relationship to be happy. i assumed from you saying that you really felt you NEEDED to see this girl to be happy...that you couldnt go for a couple of weeks and be happy without her. i could just see that being dangerous thats all - i mean there's missing someone...but still being able to get on with your life and be happy with yourself and friends and other important stuff in your life - and then there's her being the only important thing to you so you need her to be happy. i've found if i (this is me, not necessarially you!) am in a relationship out of need, the room for love is scarce. even if i am doing something for the other it's because of MY need. rather than love which isn't needy so much. i'm not claiming to be perfect or anything and i hope you can see where i'm coming from...and i hope you see your girl again soon!!! PS getting lost in a really good tv series can help distract you from shitty times in life when you're waiting for something! i recommend veronica mars or babylon 5...
I dont know...Im Verry strong..Ive been on my own since I was 15....but I HAVE felt that sort of bond where if I didnt hear from my beloved only 1 day...it was an actual pain in my soul that I felt.....I didnt need the person...I NEEDED the person..they were like breath to my heart...and food to my soul...its love...love isnt always logical
You didn't offend me, TOENAIL. I was just letting you know the situation. I am not suicidal; I just meant that if anything could make me want to end it all, it would be the fact that I couldn't be with my fiance, for whatever reason. Ms. Erzebet, thank you for the kind words. You seem like such a nice person that, whenever I see some of your posts, they always put me in a good mood, for some reason.
erzbet is pretty cluey isnt she? ive felt what you describe ezbert. but i still question whether it was love or need to feel loved because i didnt feel loved already. my thoughts are based on my belief that love connects all beings in the universe...so if we're aware of that we always know we are loved and dont "need" anyone. still considering the implications of this and how it works in real life though...
