I wanted to vent cos I'm feeling down I have two major essays to write... and its getting me down... plus its my and my babes aniiversary today... 18 months.... and he might have to work late...
happy aniversary - the essays.... imagine the relief when they are finished tho.U can do it - think big and they'll seem small.Try and make em about something you are actually insterested in - then you won't be able to stop writing - starting is the worst bit
I'm getting started I guess... Just majorly underpressure, and I really just want to see my boyfriend....
absence makes the heart grow fonder,so they say.. or as an ex used to say - out of sight,out of mind enjoy -
are you a soc. major by any chance? I am and I am taking three sociology courses this semester (first time doing that many in one semester) and I am so overwelmed by the over abundance of reading and all 3 of the professeurs have some kind of talent at managing to group all the papers into one week despite being seperate from one another (obviously). Me and my gf just celebrated 6 months 2 weeks ago. but not together, we are to far away from each other for that. d'oh good luck with everything! I remember doing a paper about gender multilation in africa 2 years ago.
ohh retro, i can so relate. I've had to work a lot on my essays during the week so i could get to have time to spend with my boyfriend over the weekend. that has left me so tired that i called in sick to work today because i so need to rest and the deadline is today and i just kept dreaming my essay wasn't finished yet!!!! so stressed out. but i feel so glad i managed to finish both of them. Concentrate and get them done girl, so you can get to enjoy your boyfriend!!!!!!!!!!!!
I got to see him... we had a nice dinner together and stuff... I think all this stress is really getting me down
Honestly - its gotta be worth it.I passed a university degree well over 13 years ago.In music - but the essay I had to write was on Art - they never taught me anything about how to do your passion for a living - e.g buisness.I only ever had part-time cleaning jobs for all that time (plus a bit of busking,playing in bands,self-employed pianist etc).I got deffferred in 2nd year to go back to my first year mainly because I'd fallen in love for the first time and didn't give a flying fuck about the essay and never wrote it.When I got deffered however - I somehow emotionally blackmailed them into giving me a second chance ( yep - I cried ).It was only then I took on the subject of art in depth - the fear of being a failure at something I knew I had inside of me took over.I passed,but only just. After all these years of cleaning fucking offices and stores - I recently worked in a place for people who wanna play music long enough to be able to say 'well.... yeah - I'm a cleaner but I have a degree in music'.The teacher took it as bullshit - but she was convinced by my playing the piano at lunchbreaks that I had a passion.Today after all these years of earning bullshit per hour for shit,I'm getting paid 5 times the average to do something I finally enjoy.Lucky me.Only problem is - I am having sleepless nights about how to maintain it.The more money u have,the stronger the temptation to waste it.But I'd rather that than churn out shit for people who have money to spend on shit.Learning to enjoy the freedom of playing music has to be a good influence - EVERYONE has their favourite music to get them through a day.On the other hand a builder would have job satisfaction - moreso if he is an artist and wants to create a great place to live for someone rather than a row of all-the-same-abodes.D'ya know what I mean? - fuck em - be your own master - create something new.Start a buisness - it could even be something very simple and down to earth but with a different philosophy of 'I'm at the top,your next,and sack all the other wankers if they so much as utter a word of complaint at our attitude sometimes I still think I should be on the road,buskin in the rain.I admire anyone who leads a balanced life cos mine sure goes up and down.You see? if this was a socialogical exam - or some fkn thing - I'd have a subject - I could have a couple a beers and write 10,000 words on it.BUT - i dunno how it works in U.S - in our essays we were aloud to submit it with photos and soundtracks and any other media that got your point across.. Sorry to woffle
I live in australia... but yeah this has to be an analytical project... it just sucks... straight down the line... harvard referenceing ... the lot
I can really relate to the school stress issue. I am working on my Masters in Psychology and spend most of my time reading or writing. There are some days that I just want to burn my textbooks and say "screw it" but I don't. Right now I have 3 psych classes, a sociology, and anthropolgy. Between the five classes I spend an average of 10 hours a day either reading, writing, or researching. I have no life other than school. My husband and I have to steal moments to spend time with each other. Thankfully my husband already has his degree (Sociology) so he understands when I don't have time for him. Next week I have to start cramming for midterms and finals (my classes started on different dates) and write a total of 4 papers, so I will be buried in my books. All that I can say is make sure that you take some time out for you and your man, even if you have to steal it. Sometimes my husband will help me research or edit my papers, not because I need him to, but it allows us to spend some time together. I wish you the best!!!
hahah I'm on here reading your post when I have 2 major essay's to write. I just want to chill out before I go into work but no, for the next two days I have to be a busy bee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
