lol..Okay, so I decided to post my poem once again. I was in a bad mood yesterday, so I threw a fit and took it off the forum. But the spacing is fixed and its all good, so here it is. If ya don't like it, I ask you to just not say anything...its a pretty big deal for me to post it. Thanks in advance. i started feeling lonely and i looked into the open sky.. as you slowly spread your wings and told me you wanted fly. . so i let you go once again and as i felt my heart sinking.. i thought things would change this time and thats what i get for thinking. . i still felt you in my body and i sincerely missed your touch.. however, time gradually faded this longing and i didn't dwell on it very much. . but now and again i would dream of you and think about the summers that had passed.. when we were so nieve and young and were always moving too fast. . i forgot what it felt like to be alive and the numbness started to be too much so.. even as i struggled to get above the water i couldn't get past the undertow. . black and blue surrounded me and the will to live started to fade.. then i heard your fall from grace and learned all the mistakes you made. . your road to normalacy was gone and all of your future was lost too.. and once again you were imprisoned but the only one to blame was you. . i loved you no matter what and what happened to me had nothing to do with you.. to me, it was simply the last piece of my life that had finally come unglued. . it was another thing gone wrong and added to all of the pressure so i.. finally exploded into a million pieces and in brilliant red, i painted the sky. . i remember that i wanted God to hear me and i wanted Him to feel my pain.. my spirit had finally been broken and i knew that i'd never be the same. . but i retreated from the darkness and faced the world again because i.. stopped breathing in and bleeding out when i discovered that i could cry. . i came down like rain and once grounded, i'd no longer fall.. you were an addiction, my only high but things had to end after all. . modern day romeo and juliet we are and separately, another monroe and cobain.. all the love in the world wouldn't be enough to save us because from birth, all we've known is pain. . this is another mad girl's love song and a beautiful mind bursting at the seams.. i fear that we will dance forever, my darling in this wasteland of broken promises and dreams. . © brandy cross 11.22.03
Thank you.. it makes it all the more personal to me because it touched someone else so deeply. I'm sorry for your loss.. believe me, I can relate. Peace and much love.
The cathartic quality of text is a wondrous thing. It did sound personal. Thanks for posting. I hope you've settled a bit by the way. Sounded pretty rough.
Enjoyed the balance within your work. Holding close and letting go. Pain & Pleasure. Sky & Earth. Even the line format flowed in the format of 4 a very centered number. Thanks for sharing.
