Searching for the person inside

So lately I've been really happy about almost everything in life, and just excited about everything in general. I honestly haven't felt happy about life for a long time, meaning years. I've finally moved on to the next stage in life, or something like that... I just feel like understanding myself and other people, like I finally have a passion about just understanding life... I'm sure most people feel like this all the time, but for me, its been awhile. its just an awesome feeling. people are noticing too... it seems like I'm making a different impression on people, and they are a lot more open to getting to know me, now that I'm more open with them. its like finally when I smile at them, it feels genuine. thats a good feeling.

In a lot of ways, I can thank marijuana for this. I'm not stoned right now, and I havent been since this morning, but it makes me want to know so much more. I'm sure you all know the feelings of knowledge and deeper understanding when you're stoned, and how you notice the things that sometimes matter most. thats just me, and I'm sure some people are the opposite; I used to be the opposite when I started to smoke. but now I just have so much more passion about everything, all the time; I don't need to be stoned to feel that need for life.

So I don't know, just wanted say this. I've been feeling like this for the last two weeks, and its really really nice. its a fresh feeling. Anybody else feel like smoking has in some way made you truely feel in love with life, even when you're not stoned? share your experiences....

 

weed, hesh, und opiuom hefe teken me duown spurituoel journeys vheech i cuonnut begeen tu ixpleen tu you, but zeey deffeenetely hefe iltered my leeffe pusitifely.

 

haha sounds like it man. I smoked opium through a hookah a few weeks ago, but I think that one time was enough for me. It was really nice but I dont think I can really do it it often, I get addicted to things too easily. I try to stick to pot if I can, not because I think people can't use other drugs in moderation, but I know that I would get addicted.

 

yea zee mejur deefference is - pot is fur iferyune-a, opium isnt

 

wait, its for everyone? I think thats what you meant... and I agree with you up to a point. I think everyone can try it without the risk of other drugs, but that doesnt mean they're all going to enjoy it, especially at first. But yeah, i know what you meant... opium isnt for everyone.

 

pot can also take all those good feelings away if you abuse it......

 

yeh

and i agree that its not for everyone, definately not the first time

 

Good job man, thats what life is all about, understanding yourself so you can understand others and the world. You are starting to live the way that people in the west try to forget about since their lives are about getting power and sex. Keep growing in the way you are growing and you will be forever happy.

 

oh god, you better have been high when you wrote this

 

i cuuld hefe been; i dun't remember iff i vss. ictuelly, i'm ilveys heegh. heegh on leeffe-a.

 

not to sound corny or anything, but i think that you are becoming less of a teenager or child and more of an adult. god that sounded fruity

 

no that doesn't sound corny, I think it could be completely true. I used to resist the idea of growing up a lot, cause I thought it just involved monotony and repetition, you know, but now that I'm getting to know myself better, it doesn't feel like such a bad thing.

 

I totally relate to what you are saying man. Live every day.... that's basically my new motto. I too have found an appreciation for life, nature, myself and others that I never had before.