erm, pretty long but please read [=

alreet?

there's no actual point to this thread, but i suppose i just need some release... [=
first things first, i had a girlfriend, but after 2 years we mutally agreed upon the end....well it started from an arguement, but only over something very insignificant.
anyway...
now after 8 months and 26 days (yes, i am aware that its sad for knowing the exact day); im not over her. It's quite hard to explain on how im exactly feeling; firstly, i loved her, and now?...i guess i still love her, but not soo much to what i did. the problem was when we were together, we burnt everything out, and we took each other for granted ( ]= )... and things just went topsy turvy.
so i love her still, i want to be with her. i miss holding, talking, laughing, sexing, smelling, taking care of her when she was 'on' (she got v.painful cramps)...there's way more, but i want you all to read this all [=
...i just wana be with her, not caring (i cared a whole lot before) how long im with her.
...on a side note, i'll let you all know that i was pretty 'fucked up', emotionally, when we first went out up until we finished. and i totally respect how she stood by me, through the thick and the grey...
...now, in the present again, she's seeing one of my old school friends. he's a good guy, and she deserves him. she also went out with a mutal friend of ours before this new boyfriend...but he says "i got fucked around by her, and im never getting back with a lass"...*two weeks later, he's all over the chicks in the club*

...so yeah, she's seeing this guy, and im happy for her. not happy for myself, 'cos it kills me to see her with another guy, but for her, im happy...confusing eh?
...the thing is though, ive tried to move on myself, but cant. i cant stop thinking about her, even when i was with a girl i really liked. i liked this other chick, but it was only physically.

i guess what im trying to say is, i fucked things up pretty bad...me n my ex rarely talk, and when we do its only on msn. i dunno' if its just me, but sometimes i still fell there's a little connection between us, but maybe not.
i keep saying to myself that to just keep all this shit to myself, dont tell anyone and especially not her...i dont want to make things difficult for her, and i want her to see new people. its great for her, and i know she's enjoying herself.

the thing is (still with me?...hope so [= ) im getting pretty down lately 'cos of it all. when im with my friends, im generally fine, unless memories come back, then i just tend to be quiet.
i have pretty long hair now, grew it all the way through our relationship and after...dreadlocked it for about a year etc....and now, with the new year coming up, im shaving it into a mohawk...for the start of a new year, hopefully a new start....although i still want her back, but in a new way...a complete new start with her is the only thing i want...

so yeah, if you've read all this, and understood the majority of it all...comments maybe?

thanks a huge handfull
[=
xx

p.s.
do you think the mohawk is too drastic?? lol

 

It better to just leave ex's alone for the most part. You are feeling down because she has moved on and is dating but you haven't found anyone yet. It is normal. Trust me when you get with the next girl you won't even be thinking of her. Try to learn from the mistakes you made last time. This is how everyone learns how to have a sucessful relationship.

 

lol, yeah, i know its all apart of life n that...but, meh, itll be a year since, then so long, and even longer...im just sick.
thanks tho, for commenting back [=
x

 

Yeah I reckon you should keep trying to move on, champ. Seh is your ex for a reason. I know that sounds lame, but honestly, it's true. Use that relationship as a learning and growing experience.

 

Focus on yourself and doing what you need to do to move on. I had an ex who had a hard time getting over me... And it totally creeped me out. He finally claims to have gotten over me and wanted to be myspace friends... And, frankly, I let him cuz it's just myspace, but everytime he so much as makes a comment, I wonder if it's just as an attempt to be "friends" or if it's yet another of his attempts to squeeze his way back into my life so he can have some hope of a reconciliation... Which, you don't mention having done several times, he really had some issues, but still -- it's pretty creepy from the other person's point of view when you obsess over an ex.

I'm not trying to put you down, just trying to say what others have said -- she's an ex for a reason, you need to move on -- but from another angle.

 

i can sympethize with you man, my old lady let me go wel it was mutual i jus realized theres nothing there for me to fix, it just hurt me way down cuz she was so sweet and evertying and then all the sudden she turned sour and didnt pay me no mind, and she was the one that wanted this relatinship. Its good you got to release it here on hipforums, ik how it goes man just realize things happen for a reason and ik a lot of this wont like take the down feeling away but just think about it. Women are a confusing bunch, and its a shame this happened to you man, im seing some good vibes your way