mentally sick and addicted and tired

I live in a town without any source of fun for kids. There is no movies no nothing. EVERYONE smokes weed. I smoke about 3 jays a day. All i do after i smoke is play music with my nieghbor and well i suck i havent progressed at all in a year. It sucks im like addicted to procrastination and pot. Pot kills my ambition its killing me but i cant stop it. When i stop smoking i cant sleep and last night i rolled a jiant jay and was like this is my last. Today i woke up and i feel sick! I feel like shit but its like a good feeling like i want to feel like shit and i want to the thc to be painfully removed from my body i want to feel like im dieing when my body loses all its thc. When its out though i want to feel better than ever though im gonna practice guitar so much paint so much i want to live im not gonna be a slave to the drug, sure people will say dude its just weed ur a pussy but its like damn its everywhere. I need strenght to do this send good energy to me! just picture a tall kid with long brown hair send me the strenght!

 

Well, when both my elder boys left home they also got into the same state as you. The great thing is you have acknowledged that a weed addiction is not helpful to you. It isn't easy giving up an easy option that is often an escape. You seem to be putting your energies into something creative which is the next step.Set yourself goals and targets that are achieveable. Yes you will feel dread for a while. Withdrawl symptoms are common with most things that are consumables - mainly because they are all chemicals whether it's pot or coffee!!

Stay strong. You have your whole life ahead of you. Make it worthwhile. You certainly seem smart enough.

And my boys? They both quit the crowd they were hanging with for a while and soon realized that if their 'friends' couldn't respect their desire not to smoke, then they weren't really friends.

 

Weed is known to impair motivation... You just gotta stop doing that and then try to get interested in other things.. like I don't know, art, maybe there are some clubs around, maybe at your school if you go to school. Good luck.

 

Once you realize weed ain't workin for you anymore you're on the road to quitting. It may take a while but it will happen. That's one of the good things about weed. It tells you when you've had enough.

 

Hmmm... thats basically what happened to me. I smoked a ton of pot, then I realized all I did was smoke pot and play music, and I even sucked at music. As you can tell by my screenname I registered to these forums at that point in my life.

Now I'm a part time worker at food co-op and a fulltime college student with a 4.0. Also I am very dedicated and disciplined to the practice of Iyengar Yoga. I don't think i've gone a day without practicing in almost a year. I quit smoking, drinking (alchohol and coffee), and eating meat. Now I eat well, sleep enough, feel light and content and proud to be who I am.

It wasn't just like a switch I flipped. It was a long hard transition. You can do it though man... Some people never realize their lives of smoking and jamming suck. I think the first step is wanting to be excellent in all you do. Once you learn a work ethic to apply to all of your life, you're set. I found my love and passion in yoga... everything else just came with it.