Need some advice, uncertain about stuff, bla bla :)

This forum has it's share of "uncertainty" in it and I suppose every time a topic like this pops up you think "another one ? just get a clue already" . Well, that's what I've been trying to do so please hear me out.

First let me introduce myself: I'm C, I'm 26, and I'm from Romania. You will understand in a moment why I'm so reticent in giving out my name, so let's get the story going

My puberty+ years have been kinda uncertain for me. I mean I knew I liked women, but I was also confused, knowing there was another option, but I wasn't allowed to explore it at all because of the country I live in. That didn't clear out very quickly, but I always thought of myself as 99% heterosexual; until I discovered I like to play with my ass anyway From there on life didn't get any easyer. I lost my virginity at 20 (with a woman), I've had a few short and long-term relationships, but the thought that I might be bisexual (or gay) never left my mind. I never gave it much attention at first, but as time passed by and my toys kept pleasuring my ass, my mind started REALLY wondering how it would be to have sex with a man. Now this wouldn't be so much of a problem if I lived in Netherlands, but I'm not that lucky... I live in Romania and people here are really REALLY retarded when it comes to accepting gay people (note: bisexual people even more). Just to give you some sort of idea on how retarded people are about this, I've never EVER seen two men kiss on the street, or even hold hands, and all my relatives, friends, etc. are against gay people., gay marriage, etc.

Anyway, back to the problem at hand - I have a few doubts. First of all, gay porn doesn't really turn me on, but seing a hard cock does. Second - I don't want a relationship, I just want to experiment a little. And third - I'm beginning to believe I don't want sex with a man, I just want to see the difference between a dildo and a real cock in my ass.

I have a strong suspicion that I might be bisexual, although because of the aforementioned doubts I'm not going to be able to confirm it until I've actually had sex with a man. Right now I believe I'm 80% straight, but the percentage is never stable, since my mind has been gradually getting used to the idea (and the desire) to have sex with a man, and everyhing that comes with it.

So, what are your thoughts on this? Does anyone have any solutions for me? Any gay people from Romania here? Lots of thanks in advance

 

First of all - putting stuff in your ass doesn't mean much. Lots of straight dudes get pleasure from that. After all, the male g-spot is up there somewhere...

Anyway, simple question: do guys turn you on? Physically, emotionally?

It sounds to me like you're just curious. There's nothing wrong with a little experimentation - it doesn't make you bi or gay.

 

While it's true that "curious" is far more probably than "bi", I did say that I started to gradually get used to the idea of having sex with a man. This started off with "hmm, I wonder what a real penis feels like" and gradually evolved towards getting turned on by penises, then by men. The thing is that I don't see myself AT ALL getting emotionally involved with a man, although in my open-mindedness I don't exclude that possibility either. Maybe there's a 1% chance there. Phisically however, I do get turned on by (certain) men, but... how can I put this... I have very high standards, I'm very picky, I don't see myself getting involved with almost any man who's pic I see on the internet. On the other hand this is how I used to be with women . Right now women do turn me on and I'm far less picky with them than I used to be, but when I was younger I was REALLY picky. Maybe it's the same thing with men now? I don't know...

 

I would say that in my opinion that if your 26, never had any type of intimate or sexual type act with a man at this point of life regardless of your geographical location and that in the 26 years you have not once been emotionaly attracted to another man, then chances are that it is nothing more than a gf or wife and then go out and trade in the latex for a test drive of the real thing to see if your into it, which as it sounds you would be right up to the point of ejaculation and then end up running home faster and freaked out from the entire thing that you would only be even more confused. I would say to stick with the toys, stick with the fantaxy and if you can't let the experimental dude know that you are just looking for some one night trial and be surprised many wanting the same, however be very safe cause not fair to carry home STD to your gf who is innocent bistander Be SAFE !

 

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It's alot less complecated to use your finger or a dildo.
If you want to complecate your life, look for a dude who will boink you.

I feel for you living in Romania, even though it's your homeland; you may want to look at traveling elsewhere. Sounds like your too cool for Romania.
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Wow, it took me less than a month to (more or less) clarify this: I had sex with a man last night, and I kinda liked it. I would have liked it much more if he would have performed better, but I'm not complaining that much, it was ok for a first time. Of course, I'm still not 100% sure I'm bi, I still have to explore this, but I'm 90% sure I am. The guy in question was not very endowed (lengthwise, girth and aspect were more than ok), not very good looking and not very young, and I'm sure if I find someone better I'm going to have a much better time.
Before all this I was scared that I wasn't going to like a lot of things and (like Labotomy_Survivor said) that I was going to run home freaked out after the event, but it turned out I liked most of it, the only aspect I wasn't very pleased about was the kissing. However, this is not a problem, I still have a lot of experimenting to do
Thanks for the advice people, I feel better now.

 

so was there anything you did like about him, because if not it begs the question why you bothered
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congratulations on an alright time!

 

Weeeelll, first of all I liked him as a person, second - I liked his penis a lot, it wasn't that long but it was really nice, third - I liked giving head, and last - I liked the anal sex . Don't get me wrong, it was an enjoyable experience, but it could have been much better in my opinion.

@mushie: thank you kindly sir