I'm selling out

Very insightful Drumminmama ! I would like to talk to you more often! Grandpa Hippy.

 

That is sooo true! I have been a hippy all of my adult life and a large portion of my childhood. It was easy to just wear it on the outside up until that time when I got married and had to work in "the mans" world. I may have toned down the way I dressed while at work to "fit the norm", but it didn't change the person that I am. It didn't change what is inside or how I feel about everyone and everything. My wife wasn't raised in the way of the hippy, but she accepts me 100%! and in the past 18 years, she has embraced the passion and mindset of the hippy movement and has become a "little bit hippy" herself. You don't have to sell out and be a different person. There is always a way to keep being yourself....sometimes it just takes a little more thinking as a hippy to do it! Peace and Love! Grandpa Hippy

 

Well, it's been months since my original post. I didn't want to take up the space to start another thread, so I figured I'd just use this one, since it's already here and sorta related. Anyway, I'm here to say goodbye. I won't be coming to the forums anymore, simply because it's very sad for me. I know you all spoke to me about being a "level 3 before you're a level 9" but the truth is, I'm a level -5. I am becoming everything I hate. But I've traded it for feeling accepted by society and loved by my family. I feel appreciated now, and if I have to give up myself, it became worth it to me to do so. Either way, I loved it here and will miss it very much.
Soaring eagle...I'll send you an IM sometime...you're still on my AIM. I might stop by from time to time. Those things that are hippie related are like my sanctuary now. I feel like I can visit with the depths of my soul around those things. Which is why I must leave. My spirit belongs here, but the rest of me cannot stand the rejection I am facing in my life. I appreciate hipforums and all of you here. Until later, I wish you all much peace, from the bottom of my heart.

 

Now EarthyGirl, that is lame. I've had to do the same thing your doing right now about almost 2 years ago, but I'm still here. and if my man doesn't like the fact that I come to this site then he can kiss my A$$. I still wear my tye dye and I wear it proudly. Atleast it still makes me feel like me. So bring your stuff back out and put your dreds back in, because if he loves you that much then atleast he'll love you the way you are and if not then tell em to hit the road. I know you love him, but obviously he's trying to change you and your not wanting it so fight for it sister.!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Thanks for the reply beautifulhippie2. He doesn't have a problem with the site, just basically me being who I really am. He says he doesn't have a problem with it, but it makes our marriage so hard. He hardly even touches me when I am "hippieish". I really just can't take the heartbreak anymore. And the rejection from EVERYONE I know. Honestly, I don't have a single person in my life that accepts me for who I am. That's why I feel like I can't fight it anymore. I've been fighting for years. I don't want to give in, but it's something that is just changing in me. I just feel so defeated.

 

Why do you need to be accepted by other people?

If they are so shallow that they can not get past your appearance why would you want to be around them, especially since you speak about your soul and real connections?

It seems so sad to see you put the things you love away for other people...you can't deny yourself and manifest your authentic life at the same time.

 

Still plenty uv wannah be hip chickyz, hoppin to corall sume dumn desperate hippster.

 

EarthyGirl1985,

honestly, there is only one single person in your life who needs to accept you - you yourself.

So just don't charge others for what you don't wanna do yourself, and don't put them down. The others are perfectly ok.

Still you might find a million excuses every day to not do it, and create a never ending drama by suffering from not feeling accepted, and put your own self down. But only you can make yourself whole. Only you can fulfill who you are ... none will do this for you, and none will take this away from you either. None can keep you from Being You.

And it is not about life-style, being hippy-ish or not or whatever. It's about wanting happiness, yet charging others for the lack of it ... seems like the wrong end to start with. Seems like you gotta go deeper here.

And sheeit - I haven't read through it all yet but I'm pretty sure you were told this over and over again.

Be true

 

Good points moving_cloud. Being accepted for who you are is a far better feeling than being accepted for who you aren't.

 

Thanks for the replies. I've decided not to leave the forums. If you have read through the entire post, you'll understand this when I say, I'm going to stay, just being a level 1. Thanks for all the help everyone.

 

You cannot be true to those you love, untill you are true to yourself. Be you, because thats all you got babe. And when it seems like everything is against you....remember that airplanes take off AGAINST the wind, not with it.

 

You have to listen to yourself luv, you're saying that the man you married doesn't want you. You're saying that he wants you to be something that you're not. He may 'say' that he doesn't have a problem with it, but what it sounds like to me is he's putting a guilt trip on you in order to get what he wants. Hes not coming out and telling you to change becuase he doesn't want to sound like an asshole. So instead he makes you feel unnacepted, doesn't touch you when you look ''hippieish'' because it makes you feel bad about yourself, and want to change in order to please your husband. You're being a good wife...but at what cost?

 

how much yoh charge?

 

BUMP!

 

Consider my situation. I left for Dead tour in 1990 about 5 minutes after by last High School exam. I spent about 13 tears living the life to its fullest. Alternative income (sh!), festival tours, mountain towns, constant travel, the whole 9 yards.
Fast forward to now....I have fully aclimated to Babylon. High paying job, normal clothes, short hair, and I live in the heart of yuppyland.
That sht doesn't matter. What matters is who I am on the inside.What matters is not your dred's or your clothes. What matters is your heart. Whether you like it or not, who you are will never change. Stop trying to change who you are, but don't think that appearence makes a bit of difference.