I'm really self-concious. I'm shy. I pretend to hate it when my friends tell me how much of a beautiful soul I am, but I really revel in it. I'm not over my ex-fiance, I'm still in love with him, and I stalked him when we broke up. I'm afraid I will never expereince true love ever again. I feel like I'm never going to get anywhere in life. I want to be a supermodel. I think my teeth are too yellow. I feel like I'm too tall. My mom has leukemia. I can't wait to be a mom. Sometimes I think I really am a butterfly. I'm tired of "being strong". I wish I was 5 again. I want to go home. I love country music. I want to put dreads in my hair. I want to make a living off of making clothes and selling them. I'm tired of being responsible. I was molested by my father, and I have never forgave him. I never wear underwear. I love karaoke. I'm lonely. I've thought about being a stripper to make money. I hate dogs. I'm addicted to chocolate, seriously. I miss my spirituality. I want to be able to draw something beautiful. I want to write a book. I want to go to college. I want to be a teacher. I'm a vegetarian, but I miss eating meat (I don't eat meat because I disagree with the way the animals are treated with hormones, and I hate the way they are slaughtered) . I wish I was a "bad girl". I pick my nose. I bite my nails. I snore. I suck my thumb when I sleep. I've had a miscarriage. I've been in an abusive relationship, and I pulled a knife on him to protect myself. I have a crush on my best friend, she's a girl, married, and has three kids. I think I believe in reincarnation. I think I'm psychic. I want to live in the woods in the middle of nowhere, and be self-sufficient. I want to get married. Wow. That does feel good!
I'm just being honest, isn't that what this is all about? I'm not trying to be beautiful, I appreciate your comment though. I'm being me...
(she makes you think she hates you calling it beautiful, but shes actualyl revelling in the complement *touches nose*) tehre are some solvable, unsolvable, rational, and irational thigns in there, some can be solved pretty easily some can be overcome, and others, well yeah its good to get em out caus thats all that can be done. id be afraid if i let everyhting out there would be an evil person inside. sometimes i think im evil deep down, otehr tiems i think thats jsut myself calling myself evil because it couldnt comprehend it any other way.
I agree with most everything you said, except i'd never want to be 5 again unless I had different parents, I've never stalked an ex, and I dispise country music with every ounce of my being, unless it's the really old shit. And oh yeah, I was molested, but it wasn't by my father. That guy is dead now, and I'm glad for it. You know you stole my other name, right? Sprouts the one who pointed that out to me.
